Naomi

I looked up my name and...idk...

In Japanese,

my name means Beauty,

That is not what I am.

In Hebrew,

My name means Pleasantness,

That is not what I am.

From the people at my school,

I'm depressing and annoying,

They don't even know the real me.

From the people I used to call my 'friends',

I'm needy and persistent,

obsessive and clingy.

But again,

they don't even know the real me.

I've changed myself so many times,

I've lost myself and have redone myself,

always losing track or the most important thing.

I put all of you in front of myself.

Even if you're rude,

or a liar,

you're way more important

than me.

I hate myself,

and I wonder why...

The truth is,

I don't even try.

I walk around,

saying "I'm fine."

I lie at times,

I hate when they worry 

about me.

I'm nothing to worry about.

I'm no need to shout,

or pout.

I'm Naomi,

and I've excepted the fact

that I can't change that.

Author's Note

.........Heh..

Reviews

[Aarontastic]

This poem kind of seemed like a downer at first, but it's more of a reflection on yourself.

I liked how you opened the poem up with the different meanings of your name in Japanese in Hebrew--I think that it would have been even cooler if you had added more translations from other languages as well. Either way, it is an effective way to demonstrate others' misreadings of your personality: it makes the reader understand how you feel about nobody understanding you.

For me, these lines here:

"I've changed myself so many times,
I've lost myself and have redone myself,
always losing track or the most important thing."

seem to capture the whole theme of it. It's also a good metaphor for being in your early teens, because that is a time when we all are changing a lot, and even hating and doubting ourselves at times. At the end of the poem you restated your name and accepted (I think that's what you meant) the fact that you can't change that. So it's like you're accepting that you've got to be yourself, regardless of how others see you. It's not bad :)

[TastyKittens]

Wow... this sounds like a lot of emotion went into this poem... d^_^b I love it! Keep up the good writing por favor

[SoulCrusader (Yas)]

Wonderful, clever poetry here, feelings expressed wonderfully

[Ashen]

I feel the EXACT same way.

[+Kenna Cuddle Bear+]

Hey Naomi! It's Makenna. I haven't known you for long but you are awesome. You may have troubles in life but you are a strong person and I am positive tht if you tried, you can overcome anything you wish. Just know tht people love you including me. You are another sister to me. Love ya. ;)

[Jess Holden]

I know E X A C T L Y how you feel

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

A slick and apparent piece, well done

[CharlesMonroe]

I agree with Burning Demon. You donht have to change yourself dear :/ your perfect the way you are, who cares what anybody else but you thinks. I don't think your persistant(unless you want my mountain dew XP), your not clingy, and your not obbsessive(unless it's anything about Andy Sixx XD) lol, I love who you are, so never change.

[Judy Ponceby]

My middle name is Naomi. :) I did not know any of the meanings of it. :) A very well written poem, but it makes me sad to think that you would think about yourself this way. I am not worried about you, so don't be upset. However, I think your poetry is valuable and it comes from you. Perhaps that's something to think about. I believe we have all felt this way at some time or other. Deep feelings well expressed here.

[Samantha ~virginpoet]

amazing read