Save me

At what lengths would you go to get what you desire?

I want to disappear from existence

To bleed to death

It's tempting me, taunting me

I want to lay in that grave

To see my name on that tombstone

This year, this month, this day

I don't want to be saved

Take my life

Right here, right now

There is no escape

From this horridle fate

The darkness creeps closer

Till it reaches me, overwhelms me

I gave in to its promise

The promise of death

The promise of lying deep

In that empty grave

Cold and alone

It satisfies me

I can only take so much

Only bleed so much

Only cry so many tears

I'm sick of fighting it

My sanity has left

Leaving only one urge

A need to medicate myself to death

Tear away my worries

Leave me to die

Leave me numb and alone

I can't handle life anymore

You are my secret desire

Time to give in

Depression I gain the more I live

Torture me no more

I can't scream anymore

I can't cry anymore tears

Agony has taken over

It overpowers me

All thoughts revolving negatively

My strength has left me

I'm left helpless

Now I'm suffering

Save me with this dagger

Just run it through me

I won't feel a thing

Only a dull numbing pain

Believe me

I just want to die

Pain can no longer be by my side

I'm begging you, please

Just save me

Save me before it's too late.

Author's Note

One thing I would like to point out is the fact I do not feel suicidal anymore, I wrote this when I was in the hospital during the summer of 2010 after a dirtbike crash that nearly killed me. This was just one of my many poems that was uploaded to this website.

Reviews

[E.V. Black]

It's been a while since there was a poem that ever got to me emotionally. This was it. I know that many people can, and often do say, that they understand the feeling of feeling different and wanting to kill yourself. But they really don't. They don't get the emotional complexity of it all. It's painful.

What feels like a long time ago, I felt alone and unloved. My heart would ache and break with the thought of loneliness. It felt like no one wanted me and it tore me apart inside. The one thing that kept my head surfaced above the tide was writing. If I were to die, how would I make a difference in the world? What would my death be to others? Just another person on Earth who's dead. Time goes on. Feelings are forgotten.

What I learned is that YOU have to make YOUR life memorable. If you want to go for something, GO FOR IT. If you want your life to mean something, MAKE IT MEAN SOMETHING. It may seem that having no one there for you is the end of everything, but it's NOT.

After all you experience, I hope you realize the same thing. It may not come now, but later. I'm only telling you the lesson I've learned myself. Life is so precious and if we end ourselves, than what were those many years of learning for?

We are here for you. I am here. Just keep faith in yourself and you will get through. I promise.

[Kaylor Mason]

Good you're feeling better

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

This was an emotional write. I can relate to this piece because sometimes I get this feeling...and it's just being different and not wanting to live because people don't accept me or understand me...so I understand this piece. I think you did an awesome job on emotions. I could feel the pain throughout the piece. I'm sorry about your accident....near death experiences are awful. Thanks for sharing..

[Adam :P]

wow emotion was powerful i really like this poem. great job!

[Rin]

This poem gives me absolute chills, it's wonderfully written. It's been a long time since a poem has ever made me actually cry like this has. I felt alone and unloved at a time in my life, and even considered suicide. This poem remids me of when I felt that way. The poem is a true piece of work. I absolutley love it.

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Suicide isnt the best way to go, but I've always wondered what those people are thinking when they do this. This piece has opened up new doors for me. Thank you for such an astounding write!