Watching the World Die Slowly

 

That’s it, I’m finished!

I want to leave my position;
I want to scream at your face

With words that don’t make sense to you,

And words that make sense to me.

The breaking point is here,

Watching the ticking time bomb
Laughing at my misery and unhappiness,

My caring heart and my words of wisdom.

I speak with words, but they only turn into acid.

I’m only trying to help, to make everybody else happy.
But that is what’s wrong with me!

I try, and I try, and I try, letting my brain

Be racked up with thoughts that are piling

Up and flying out of my ears, letting my

Thoughts being bottled up, or written here.

Yet those two saviors are my only mind ease,

Making me feel as though as I’ve fallen into a dream,

Which is what I would really like for this whole topic to be.

But it’s not, and it’s real like the bitter cold at my face.

 

So make sure everything goes right in the end,
Or the war that I don’t want to face will be

Right in the front of me, fighting until

I feel the skin crack, and see my bones show right through the core. 

 

Author's Note

I just read something, and it really upset me because to tell you the truth, I have to no idea what to do or say anymore. I feel like everytime I make a move or say one word, it gets twisted into something bigger. I feel so hopeless, and I almost feel as though this is deja vu for me again. I'm so sick of not being able to bring happiness into somebody's life, or be able to say something without upsetting somebody even more. I can only what I feel what I can say. I'm tired of being the peacemaker who can't bring peace into what's happening. The reason I chose the title is because I feel like my world is breaking apart very slowly...I'm sorry, I'm just emotional.

I'm just hoping that in the end, it'll turn out for the better. :[

Reviews

[Chelsea.]

Ooo .
This is amazing. I love this. I love your word choice and how you described things.
Very good :D

*Don't worry, everything will get better in the end, and if it's not better, then it isn't the end. (: