Screamo Emo

about no one knowing what its like to be me.

I could write what my life is like in a thousand different ways, in a hundred different genres but that wouldn't change the fact that no one understands me....or my pain.

 

I soon found out early on that I am alone in this thing they call life and so far it isn't doing me any favours, well none that are worth bragging over.

 

It's a struggle to make myself breathe as it is. Believe me, if I was hooked up to an oxygen tank, I would use all the strength I had left to reach over and pull the cord out.

 

Being me isn't easy, it's harder than everyday life. To put up with the fact that I have over three different disabilities is pretty tough. I wake up every morning and then....BAM! Reality check oh yeah that's right, I'm still f****n retarted.

 

By now you would probably already get that it didn't take me long to find out about cutting. It was the best thing I ever did. Although it left me reminders everywhere I made an inscision, it felt worth it at the time and I would never take back one night of putting that sharp, pointy friend of mine to my arm, digging it deep into my skin, ripping away the top layer of my arm into where the evil black substance surges through my body, yes my blood is black, my heart is black....my soul....is black.

 

 

I walk to school with SlipKnoT blaring into my ear drums, deafining the sound of those around me. Making the air that surrounded me, my own world of pure hardcore screamo.

 

The more I hear it, the more I want, I crave it, I breathe it, I live it and its in my blood. I will play when I'm  100 and wrinkly. SCREAMO IS MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Author's Note

jUST BEING ME :)

Reviews

[EvilAngel]

blunt and beautiful. i like how you wrote what others are only thinking. you're not afraid to say what comes to mind and you express it in a raw way. i myself love screamo music when it all gets too much. i can just drown out whatever is going on with soundproof earbuds:) kudos!

[Correspondence]

Oh lord, just found my soul again. Where have you come from and why haven't we met ~Correspondence

[dreaming dame]

I guess to each his or her own, but I like the fact that you are not afraid of being yourself, no matter what that may be:) And, for whtttat it's worth, I believe that everyone's special. Just sayin'

[Sam Romero (TBC)]

i like it...how the only thing that will understand you and the only thing that you will understand purely is music.screamo.

[khalid]

very nice. you tell real story in a very nice way

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

Almost painful to the point of ecstatic pleasure, it;s raw emotion exudes the talents in you and the regardless thoguths for others, well done, good read.

[deadlysilence]

this is very deep and prolly a lot of people can relate to this I love how you can write so angerly and your emotions are like razors they cut threw to you and you can''t stop reading it very good

[December Blaize]

Wow, this is just pure emotion and anger... it's a good write and you really come through in it.

[falling_toxic_rain]

ah pure emotion, raw really. I love this write of yours, and even though I can't say I understand because everyone has there own personal story I can't say mine is much different, I have disadvantages, that differ....but ohhh how these have brought me down...pulled me and sliced me to smithereens....where I practically almost accidentally fell over a bridge...what can I say though....
I love the last two stanzas....seems as if you're filled with anger....and that is your escape....
and the buaety of scars.....hmm...nice write.