Maybe

Maybe

A Story by Norah
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It isn't a story.

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 Maybe


Maybe connection isn’t forever. Maybe its not necessary to have everything we desire. Maybe life isn’t meant for everyone. Maybe the creation of some of us was only to make us suffer. I have never seen acceptance in my life. Not from family or friends, indeed not from anyone. Things have never gone my way. I was never given a chance to express. Maybe nobody loved me. Maybe nobody wanted to have me. Maybe nobody noticed me. Do I love you enough Mr. nobody? They may not remember. They may not have observed or seen it. But I have been through it all. Alone. I was fine. I was doing well just like any healthy child would. My parents could not accept me. They were the first to judge me. To break me. To shatter my heart. To isolate me. To hurt me. To make me feel less than everyone around me. Maybe they did not mean it. Maybe they lacked awareness. Maybe I keep lying to myself about it. Maybe they wanted to change me. To make me someone I’m not. The daughter they have always wanted. I started to grow negatively from the day I realized all of that. Words said could linger on my mind for weeks. Actions taken toward me made me weak. Maybe I was innocent or too stupid to get it. Maybe I was not ready for that s**t. I never blamed anybody. In the silliest situations, you would find me regretting everything I said or did. Blaming myself. Hating myself. I thought hating myself was just a phase I’m going through. Yes. I loved hurting myself. I loved sleeping pills. I loved starving myself. I loved making myself suffer. Sometimes too cold to bare. I keep going. Sadness never goes. Pain never stops. I was good. Too good. Nobody knew about it. I acted normal when I was on the verge of death. Suicide. This word never left my mind. I wanted it so bad. I wanted to leave this life. I wanted to see the looks on their faces. I wanted them to regret too. Maybe I never lost hope. I wanted to live to revenge. I was on for any possible chance to take revenge from anyone who has hurt me. Maybe I just never forget. 


© 2017 Norah



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This is an interest muse and Its great and absorbing. Takes a bit to interpret but I guess that after looking at your other works, this the way you prefer to write.
Keep it up.

Posted 1 Week Ago


I'm not sure how to review this story being it's so sad and dark. To be set off in life in a bad way would be depressing for anyone. Revenge is understandable but not advised. It would only make things hopeless.
I wish you luck.

Posted 1 Month Ago


before you reminded me of sleeping beauty, and now you remind me of cinderella (at least the first 1/3 of the fairytale). soooooo i'm pretty sure you're going to be a princess one day :p also, you don't need to get revenge on people who hurt you because they'll end up cutting their feet apart to fit into other people's shoes, uh probably metaphorically. and i particularly like this story because of your line "maybe i never lost hope" because it also mirrors cinderella because she still put herself out to the world, although she then went and hid after each time, but she got what she wanted by doing so! also, if you haven't already, learn how to communicate with animals :) thank you for sharing this story with us!

Posted 1 Month Ago


It hasn't the "feel" of imagining... The bitter taste of "Real" simmers throughout.

Posted 1 Month Ago


Perceptions from others will change perceptions we have of ourselves whether we like it or not. If we go through time holding on to these false perceptions, we become strangers to the world and strangers to ourselves. The only way to truly discover the person we were meant to be is to stop wasting energy on past perceptions, and concentrating on changing future perceptions. Trust me, it can be done...Stay strong, and never give up on yourself, life is always worth the struggle.

Posted 1 Month Ago



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