Falling

The second and third of a 3 poem series: Flying, Falling, Free

Falling

I wasn't sure, but you had to know

I couldn't take it anymore.

So I told you that I liked you;

Something I'd never done before.

You told me you knew already,

You had already guessed.

So I couldn't even hide it.

Am I cursed or am I blessed?

In knowing, you were not surprised.

And your response, you knew,

Would not be what I was hoping for.

It would not be "I like you too."

You apologize for hurting me.

It isn't what you wanted.

But you like someone you can't have too.

So I guess we are both haunted.

I try so hard to forget

The way you make me feel.

I want the memories to leave as tears.

I just want to heal.

But as steady tears leak from my eyes

The memories don't leave my heart.

The feelings stay and with every beat

My heart tears me apart.

It was stupid to think I could make you feel

What you feel for her for me.

I had hoped for happy ending

But the truth's not hard to see.

The laughs, the jokes, the butterflies

Were they all a waste of time?

Because here I sit and here I cry

For one who was never mine.

It's easy to hate likeable people

But not to hate people you love.

But loving and hating both tear me apart

They're the same thing from above.

Free

I want to be mad

Because then

Being apart from you

Wouldn't hurt so much.

But it's hard when it's you.

If one day you decided

You liked me back and told me so,

I'd like to think I would turn you down

I'd like to think I'd say:

"I don't want to be

Your second choice.

You like me

When you realize

She doesn't like you back?

I don't deserve that.

I cherished every smile,

Every laugh,

Every touch

I could get from you.

But they were gifts

You didn't give on purpose.

So you can have them back.

They're all you'll have of me

I guess it's true

That you don't know what you have

Until you lose it."

But I wouldn't.

I couldn't.

If one day you decided

You liked me back and told me so,

I would forgive you on the spot.

I would probably say:

"I'll give you

A second chance.

You accepted what you could not have

And then realized

It wasn't what you actually wanted.

You deserved more.

Someone to cherish

Every smile,

Every laugh,

Every touch.

Someone to see those gifts

As the precious things they are.

Will you treasure

The moments with me

As you treasured them with her?

Will you hold them with gentle hands

And never let them go?

I guess it's true

That you don't know what you have

Until you lose it.

So here's your second chance

To see what you gave up. "

But if that day never comes.

I know I'll heal in time.

I feel the light beginning

To reenter my eyes.

I will find love again.

And we will always be friends.

You want me to know that.

And I do.

Author's Note

The third poem wouldn't save in any other way than this...

Reviews

[Carm]

I loved them they have so much heart.

[NotaRabbit19]

Thank you.