The night my heart broke in two

that feeling you get when your heart breaks in half

The night my heart broke in two

I wasnt ready, I was so afraid. I was afraid you would leave me. 

I was afraid you would hurt me. 

I was afraid of everything you would say. 

But most of all, I was afraid I wasnt good enough.

You are so much better than me. 

I still can't find any flaws that actually  matter. 

But I'm filled with them. 

Then you said the words that made my heart drop:

"Just friends"

I thought I would be ok. 

"Just friends, I can do that. Theres time for something to come of it anyways. who knows where things will go?"

I wanted something real. 

But I knew I wasnt ready yet. Thats why I said "No" those 3 times.

I didn't want to ruin something potentially amazing, because I wasn't ready. 

I was so in love with you. 

Turns out, I should have just went for it. 

FINALLY! I was ready, I had it all planned out. 

"Doing anything for valentines day? im single, youre single, lets do something!"

Then we do, I tell you I'm ready.

We fall in Love, life is perfect. 

I took Valentines day off of work, so I was sure I would be free to be all yours. 

I didnt care what time it was, I was going to tell you. I was going to tell you I was ready, lets finally be in love, lets finally make this happen. I want it. I love you. I need you. You make me such a better person.

"Hey! doing anything for valentines day?!"

"Yeah, I'm busy.."

"Oh, what? do you have a special lady friend now? LOL!"

"Actually, yes I do..."

There is was. The moment my heart broke, for the first time ever. 

"Yes, I do."

Three words that completely crushed me. 

I can still tell you exactly what I was doing...what I was wearing...

I can still tell you how that moment felt. 

I can still feel my heart shattering.

In that moment. 

My heart broke in half.

My world fell apart. 

I cried for weeks. 

A part of me died inside.

I knew I had lost you forever. 

I knew I had waited too long to be ready. 

Theres still a hole there. 

I pretend to be OK. 

I'm not. 

I'll never be. 

My heart is crushed. 

Simply because I wasn't ready, too late. 

That, that was the moment my heart broke in two. 

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Mayank]

The free-form is really good, it also gave me the feeling of spoken word poetry which is quite the rage now a days, they are like poem, mixed with the story and the rhyme that sounds like rap.