Colours

There's nothing anymore

It's been a long time now hasn't it

I don't know how much time has passed

There are no clocks here

There is no time here

I can look around all I want

But i'll never actually see anything

I've been laying here for awhile now

My body hasn't moved in a while

I wonder if I even have a body now

I can't feel anything

Not even numbness

I can touch the white walls all I want

ButI never actually feel anything

I haven't eaten in a long time now

But i'm not hungry

I'm not full either

But I can't eat

Even if I wanted to

Witch I don't

Food has lost its appeal

I can't even remember how it tastes

Or even if it had a "taste"

It's been silent for awhile now

I don't hear anything

Not a creak

Not a rustle

Not even a breath

I can listen as hard as I want

But i'll never actually hear a sound

Why is it all white?

Up?

White

Down?

White

Left?

White

Right?

White

There used to be more

Blacks, grey's, and reds

I didn't like them

They were dark

And cold

But they were all there was

I wanted more

I wanted white

Funny

How I used to want this white

I wanted it to replace the blacks and grey's

But now that i have it

I wish for

Grey and black

Even for red

A long long time ago

Before the blacks and grey's

Consumed the bright colour's

Red was bad

It meant pain

And anger

but then

When all was dark

Red became joy

And peace

It replaced the black and grey

When it was dark

darker than it had ever been

There was too much red

It washed away all the black

And

grey

And brought the white

There was once a time

A long long time ago

Before the black and grey

Before red meant peace

There were so many colour's

Like blue and green

Everything was colorful and light

There was laughter

And love

And best of all

Feeling

But it couldn't last

could it?

The colour's eventually began

To mute

To dull

To fade

To become

Dark

Instead of

Blue

And

Green

There was

Black

And

Grey

I needed more

I needed something to replace

Colour

So i made red

But the red

That was meant to

Fill the void

Replace colour

Stop the pain

Would not work

No matter what

No matter how much red I made

There was never enough

So I decided

I wanted white

I remembered how

The blacks

and

grey's

consumed the

blues

and

greens

So the red

would have to consume the

blacks

and

grey's

To be white

So I made

Everything red

And then

The white

Consumed

The red

And became

This room

Of white

This is what I wanted

What I yearned for

What I begged for 

But i'm not happy

I'm not sad though

I'm not anything

What I really want is the colour back

I would even take the black and grey back

Anything but this empty nothingness

But that won't happen

It will all be white

For the rest of…..

Whatever this is

There is no time

I'm not sad

Or happy

Or

Am I?

I can't tell

Maybe i'm wrong

Maybe there was never any colour

Maybe it was always white

Maybe there was never blue

Or green

Maybe there was never any black

Or grey

Maybe

In this world

All there ever was

was white