Sleepsong

In the strangest dreams, walking by your side
It is the hole you impose upon your life
When you're out, loneliness, it crawls up in the ground
It's what you feel, but can't articulate out loud.

My second biggest fear is never finding someone who will love me.

I always thought there was something dreadfully wrong with me growing up in Jr High and high school. While most of my friends found romance and dates to the prom I was always that girl who never had anyone.

Now those friends are getting married..and some are even having kids.

One by one.

Slowly but also horrifyingly quickly.

and....I'm still alone.

Sure I 've had boyfriends here and there...but I've never had that first love. That stays. 

The love that sweeps you off your feet and makes you drunk with glee. .

The kind of love where everything looks different. I experienced it for a moment in Paris..but I had to leave and return home.

You go to sleep on your own and you wake each day with your thoughts
And it scares you being alone
It's a last resort

Don't talk to strangers

and don't walk into danger....

I am very passionate about the idea of love and still can't figure out why I've had such terrible luck.

Because of having not very good luck I've started to talk to strangers...and sometimes It gets tempting to walk into danger.

My friend from Turkey.

Sometimes I sensed danger with him...but I loved it.

Danger is what thrills us.

It's what makes us feel that something is bigger than us.

I'm not saying I'd walk into a warzone...or purposely put myself in danger..

I'd never give out personal contact information to someone I didn't trust..

I just like the idea and toying around with the little things.

 All you want is someone onto whom you can cling Your mother warned of strangers and the dangers they may bring
 

Your dreams and memories are blurring into one
The scenes which hold the waking world slowly come undone

You'll come undone

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