Waking Up Slow

All my nights

Taste like gold

When I'm with you

It's like everything glows

Its a little bit clearer now

I love you like the sun came out

I remember it like it was yesterday.

The memory is still so fresh in my mind I can smell all the flowers and sadness.

I stood alone in front of my best friend.

She was in her casket looking so cold but so peaceful.

I was the last person to be with her before they shut her in.

Moments before the view of her was gone forever - I remember thinking:

I'm going to have to start all over...

How am I ever going to find such a friend?

I'm really going to have to start over...

Fast Forward 5 years:

I miss her every day.

And I drive out to the cemetery and sit on her stone.

I talk to her and tell her all my problems.

My joy.

My pain.

I never made a new best friend.

But I did make more friends.

Some of the people who have hugged my heart do not live in the US.

Some of them are people I have never met face to face.

Some of them are on here.

And if you are reading this, and if you know we are close - I thank you.

From the bottom of my heart.

You have made me feel less lonely.

Less sad.

Less grey.

Less dark.

Less empty.

More sun shiny.

You have given me light.

And

I love you for that.

Author's Note

Reviews

[Richard🖌]

Sighhh, Kathryn!
How wonderfully beautiful and poignantly touching are the deep, abiding words you've so warmly and brilliantly shared with us that the softest tear of regard and respect wells in my knowing eyes.
You've awakened a place within my core that feels the wondrous vividness of your sweet emotion, and is one of those aspects of your writing that has kept me a fan of yours for so long.
I dearly love the gentle sensation of your song choice, too.
A true special friend is rare and very hard to come by … so, I understand this piece in a truly special way. Truly and sincerely, I hope you consider me a friend, Dear Kathryn … for, I certainly feel blessed to always think of You as mine. : )

With my warmest hug of thanks for this most lovely piece from your brilliant pen! ⁓ Richard ✨

[Kathryn Smith]

You were one of my first friends on here Richard. I am lucky to have you! :) xx

[Richard🖌]

Aw, Kathryn,
How sweet of you! ✨
I assure you, your feeling is mutual. : ) x0x

[Annette Pisano-Higley]

Two Beautiful poems in form, color, flow and words. So honest and personal. Moving back and forth in time and heart...your love for your bff still so strong but your grief letting in a little more healing light. So glad to read and know this. Glad WC is such a supportive site for you. It is for me too. Blessings.

[Kathryn Smith]

Thank you Annette!

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Ditto, dear friend! You're one of the few I cherish my friendship with on here :*
This was very heart touching to read. Some people really are irreplaceable ...
Hugs

[Kathryn Smith]

Thank you so much Yumna!

[Dr. YumnaKay]

You're welcome, Kathryn 😊💜

[John Alexander McFadyen]

This is a deeply personal and brave pair of pieces. The first is full of joy and warm glowing the second sadness is woven through yet it holds hope, even if simply based on internet relationships. We can find 'love' and respect and distant friendships on line.