Something To Tell You

An open letter to a Starbucks Barista

Dear you -

I still don't know your name.

And its bothering me.

BUT...

I have something to tell you!

And even though we do not know each other; I've been wanting to tell you this story for a long time.

In 2016 I lived in Ireland.

Lucky me - I know.

But the sole reason why I went was to meet someone.

(I'm one of those people who loves to take chances.)

I went to meet a man.

Someone who led me on for two years.

And when I got there..

I found out I crossed an ocean for someone who wouldn't

jump over a puddle for me.

It is a long story but it was emotionally abusive what he did...

And I was very hurt.

So when I returned back to the US

I went to church on a Sunday night.

And to my shock, there he was.

Sitting in the chairs in the front of the church.

But then I came back to reality and figured out

it wasn't him....

But this man...

Whoever he was..

Triggered so much rage inside of me.

He had everything the man in Ireland had.

And still there were moments I struggled trying to figure out if it indeed was the person who had

hurt me - or someone else.

Meanwhile - during that year

 I went to the

tiny little Starbucks in my

hometown.

I loved it because it was small.

And it helped me get used to the

USA again.

And in this coffee shop there was another man.

He seemed nice..

And on one morning when I was feeling sad, he gave me a mug and a little plate . 

It made my day!

Eventually I put two and two together.....

And I realized that the man I once had been glaring at..

The man who triggered so much anger....

Was the man in the coffee shop.

And believe me when I say this..

I felt horrible.

And I hope he never noticed me glaring at him from afar..

But if he did...I wanted to apologize.

And I also wanted to say

that in the end - he looked nothing like the person

who damaged my heart.

He actually looked much more handsome. :)

So there you have it!

The story I wanted to tell you.

I know it is a lot to take in..

and it's probably quite strange having a random girl

give you a letter...

But I had to do it!

Thank you for taking the time to read this.

For making wonderful cups of coffee

And for always being kind.

Kindness means the world to me.

xo

Kathryn

Reviews

[John Alexander McFadyen]

A very captivating story Kathryn. Indeed I am assuming there is a true base to it. It is sensitive, emotional and describes the after effects of being badly let down. It also describes recovery as the letter in itself is part of healing. You have a fragile but lovely heart. It shows. But tell me did he reply/act/speak to you?> Part two please!!!!

[Kathryn Smith]

Thank you much McFadyen! I actually have not given him this letter yet. I'm thinking about it though! Should? Would it be weird?

[John Alexander McFadyen]

If you are really attracted to him I say yes. But be open minded. If he says no you lose nothing. Just laugh and say you have to try and still be nice to him, Win, win! It is always worth entering a relationship as if walking into a shop you have never been in. If you don't like it for some reason you are free to walk out and seek out another shop lol!

[Kathryn Smith]

I am 95 percent sure he likes me....so I think I might go for it. :)

[John Alexander McFadyen]

You have to give us the next installment Kathryn. Rooting for you. Go for it girl!

[DeNine]

Wow I love this!! Definitely give he letter to the man and let us all know how it went!

[Kathryn Smith]

Thank you! I think I'm actually going to do it! :)

[DeNine]

Awesome! Make sure to tell us how it goes.

[Kathryn Smith]

I will for sure! It might take me a while...but we only have 1 life...so why not. :)

[DeNine]

Agreed! :)

[Fanicia E.]

That is so sweet! And it's a great to think of how we can impact others for the better :)

[Kathryn Smith]

Aww youre sweet yourself! :D Thank you very much! xx

[Fanicia E.]

Anytime 😊