Zero

Hello 

Hello 

Let me tell you what it's like to be a      0     zero 

This is for the girl(s) who are targeting me at work and at school. 

The girls who are bullying me. 

Talking about me and my personal life. 

Spreading rumors. 

It is said that you are doing this because you are jealous. 

And let me tell you. 

Don't be. 

Yes, I've gotten to travel the world. 

Word has gotten out that I'm dating the handsome Ethic's teacher on campus. 

Maybe I'm good looking. 

Slender. 

I've got the ability to turn heads. 

I've a wonderful family. 

Fantastic friends. 

A good sense of humor. 

But underneath this all? 

My life isn't glamorous. 

It is far from perfect. 

My best friend?

She's dead and buried. Rotting in a cemetery. 

My life has been filled with hospital visits. 

I struggled for life before I was born. 

I had to inject myself with needles for years. 

My house burned down when I was 3. 

I'm a massive pessimist. 

Being tiny means you often get overlooked. 

Underestimated. 

Stepped on. 

I constantly worry about what others think or will think. 

My right eye was damaged in a car crash. 

I may go blind one day. 

My brother Joshua never got to live. 

My brother Steven doesn't really talk to me. 

My twin cousins are fighting breast cancer. 

My sister has a disease that makes her miserable. 

My mother is the hardest working woman I know and everyone thinks her job isn't important. 

My father has Bell's palsy. 

I was often bullied as a child. 

I was always picked last. 

I've been sexually harassed multiple times. 

I flew to a different country for a man who didnt care about me. 

I could go on and on. 

You want to be me? 

Try feeling like a zero. 

Try battling my anxiety. 

My insecurities. 

Try being body shamed. 

Try living in a family that holds fancy dinner parties where you feel like you do not fit in. 

Don't get me wrong, 

I love my life. 

Trials make us who we are. 

But please do not wish to be me. 

Wish to be you. 

Because I believe you are good enough the way you are. 

Please leave me alone. 

This will not benefit you in any way. 

If you truly want to be like me. 

Speak with kindness. 

For kindness is key.  

Thank you. 

xoxo

Kathryn 

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