Pendulum

Swing, never still
Waking up in the morning
Limbs of lead
Not even sure I could get out of bed
Heart drops
Freezing inside
Even wondering if I wanted to die
Dragging myself through life
My heart has frozen and turned to ice
Concentration on a vacation
I must've missed that flight
A frown that cannot seem to turn itself upside down
No reason to be sad
There never really is
I know I deserve it
Such a horrible person
When will this misery end?

Swing, never still
A burning fire inside
Not again
I can't contain it
Irritation
More like frustration
Turning into anger
Turning into rage
Fists clenching to resist the urge
Everything looks good to hit
Maybe the wall
How about that girl?
She's done so many horrible things to me before
Why am I thinking like this?
This isn't me
I need someone to set me free
Digging my fingers in the back of my neck
I
NEED
TO
HURT
SOMETHING!!
I stare at clenched fists
I found the answer
This is it
If the victim is me
What harm could it really do?
That's what has been done

Swing, swing, swing
Back and forth
Extreme to extreme
Until the end
And you'll always hear my screams