Now She Can Cry

Now She Can Cry

A Poem by Chloe..Across the Universe

Thanksgiving come and gone
no one else seemed to notice the empty chair
she was tempted to put a place setting there
but she didn't

And when she felt the tears welling
within her weary blue eyes
she bit her tongue

Gifts bought, wrapped placed beneath
the tree
those Christmas lights seemed to mock her
those that burned brightly but suddenly faded
just like...

She wanted to smash that tree
stomp those gifts. rip those twinkling lights
from those branches
scream at the top of her lungs
but she didn't

And when she felt those tears welt
she squeezed her eyes so tightly closed
everything stayed black for a moment when she opened them -
bit her tongue till she tasted blood -

Fireworks, champagne, a toast to the old
a toast to the new
smiling faces, kisses all around

She wanted to, could have dampened those fireworks
salted the champagne with her pent up tears
tore those kisses from lips with her nails
but she didn't

New Years Day -
Christmas turkey gone
only a carcass
one lone piece of soggy pumpkin pie
tree down
people resting

She sits in the bedroom that smells so familiar
still after all this time
from the velvet box,
takes out the lock of hair

Touches gently
smells, feels, holds to her heart
memories wash over her weary body

She lays her head on the pillow
where she last lay
tears flow like rapids
unsung screams burn her throat
tears soak the pillow

Now ...she can cry

© 2011 Chloe..Across the Universe

Author's Note

Chloe..Across the Universe
First holidays without loved ones .....
I wish you all a Happy New Year , will be around in awhile to read ...

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OH this was so sad. I so remember a time when I too felt like this. many a time went by while I sat by myself within a crowd and felt so alone. tears fell when the darkness came, and this described exactly what it felt like.. Your imagery was perfection, your words became mine.. Bravo!

Mags xx

Posted 8 Years Ago

1 of 1 people found this review constructive.


Beautiful!!!That is how you write!I don't know of anyone who has lost somebody that wouldn't relate to this!! sometimes the best writing is not seen by the masses...hopefully this will.

Posted 3 Years Ago

I apologize so much because of the Swaglord's review. He is a pest we are trying to get rid of. You're piece is amazing, keep at it.

Posted 3 Years Ago

1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

I think you have captured this quite well. Great job

Posted 3 Years Ago

I love the imagery used. Also it beautifully sums up how powerful memories can be. They completely take control.

Posted 3 Years Ago

wowwww...... I don't how it feels to loose a loved one around the holidays

Posted 3 Years Ago

wow very sad but I loved how u described not having a loved one be there during the holidays

Posted 3 Years Ago

very deep and thoughtful...i share the pain...i have lost the love of this life to cancer...i have missed his
LAUGHTER/LOVE every second since...blessed be to thee...jc

Posted 3 Years Ago

This piece has such a sombre tone, makes you truly empathise with her.. Every word, every action makes you feel with her. She exutes such strength and stands as a symbolic pillar for all who have lost loved ones at such a time, when emotions run high. It evokes such emotion and silent pain, yetthere is no trace of vulnerability.. I love it.

Posted 3 Years Ago

Surviving the holidays after losing loved ones is never ever easy, no matter how much support you're given. You captured the aching need to grieve but hiding it for when you're alone so as not to ruin others joyful times. I empathize with you and as I assume this was inspired by a real loss in your life, I wish you well and hope you've been able to find some healing and relief. xo

Posted 3 Years Ago

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Added on January 1, 2011
Last Updated on January 24, 2011


Chloe..Across the Universe
Chloe..Across the Universe

Smalltown, USA, AR

Sometimes i feel like an alien in a strange land..can you relate? I love people and friends are just that to me , friends-if you request me as a friend it would be nice if you read something I have .. more..


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