GroundedA Story by ViaanRealization about one's inner self at a time when all hopes are lost
“……….I
can’t breathe!!! Someone……..anyone…..help me!!! Please help me get out of
here!!......” My
eyes burst open. It’s so dark I can barely focus on anything; my heart pounding
against my rib cage, my breaths fast and shallow. A light breeze brushes
against my moist skin bringing back sense into me. My pupils gradually adapt to
the darkness and silhouettes of familiar objects come into view. Of course it
is my room, my home! And I have been dreaming. This has now become a regular
phenomenon. I
sit up. My lips are parched, my throat dry! I turn towards the bedside table
and reach out for the glass of water I religiously keep every night before
going to bed. I drink the water patiently, almost tracing its route down to my
stomach. I
lay back on the bed staring up at the ceiling. The curtains dangle gracefully
to the rhythm of the breeze, letting in blotches of light from the street
tridents. Although calmer than before, I fail to settle in. I shift in bed
uneasily. Something doesn’t feel right. The restlessness unnerves me. The dream
had been too overpowering, I realize that. But the elements never really show
up once I am awake. Not even a fraction of it! Therefore like always, I brush
it aside putting all the blame on my work. This is definitely not something I should
stay up worrying about. So to distract myself I start skimming through my
phone. A few Facebook notifications and a couple of emails show up in the upper
left corner as tiny icons. Just then, a new notification pops up on my home
screen. From TOI (Times of India). It
reads: ‘Earthquake
of 7.9 intensity strikes Nepal. Massive destruction and casualties suspected.
The government has declared a nation-wide state of emergency.’ 7.9
on the Richter scale is colossal!!! A catastrophe of this caliber will transform
the Himalayan country to ghost town. As I read through the details of the news,
haunting images of buildings collapsing, crushing countless people inside,
roads cracking open, vehicles toppling, and panic-stricken residents running on to the
streets, flood my head……. And I doze
off……. The
silence of the night is broken by mild tremor…..or so I dream…..!!! The
noise of dogs barking in the distance float into my ear. Somewhere in the alleyway
maybe….and then a sharp outcry! I
spring up, baffled. The scream comes again, only this time longer. In no time, mayhem
breaks out.
I
turn on the light and rush to the window. As I look out, to my disbelief, I see
the apartment building in front of mine tilt to one side……and before I can even
bat an eyelid it starts crumbling down like a pack of cards!!!!!! I
freeze. This can’t be happening. I must be sleeping. This is just a very bad
dream! It will pass. Just then a violent tremor shakes the ground below thrusting
me to the floor against the bookshelf which starts rattling vigorously throwing
books all over before crashing down on me. I feel a sharp pain on my head and
back. Ignoring the impact, I crawl out of the mass and scurry under the bed. I
lay on my chest, resting my chin on arms crossed in front; panting…. The room
gradually fills up with concrete dust making it difficult to breathe. Cupboards
crash on the floor, window frames smashing against each other; a sight to haunt
me for days to come. Of course if I survived….which seems very unlikely under
the given circumstances. My
eyes fleet towards the doorway, my mind frantically trying to conjure up an
escape plan. It is clear. As of now. Since the house is one-storied, and my room
happens to open into the hallway, it would take less than a minute to be out in
the open. And from where I lay, the hallway was mostly in view. All I have to
wait for is the right moment to make the move. But
alas such is not to happen. The continuous shaking of the ground is beyond what
the roof could take in and before my eyes, the ceiling in the hallway caves in
bringing the walls down with it……….thus blocking the exit and extinguishing my
chance to escape. I
am trapped, I realize. There
is very little left I could do now to save myself. Just wait for death to come
and take me or a rescue team if I’m lucky enough. Life
is precious. And it is during such crisis that we release the true worth of
life. We all complain about life, about how unjustly we have been treated,
about how our little needs have not been met, about how happiness is like a
mirage and sorrow is all that there is. Amidst all our misery, we often forget
that life in itself is a blessing. In this big world, I’m too inconspicuous.
One life cut short in a population of billions does not count. But one life is
all I have!!! And to me and those I belong to, it counts very much!! Giving
up, even in the face of death, is never an option. Life is always worth
fighting for! The
floor starts cracking open. I tightly hold on to the leg of the bed, wriggling
away from the cracks. Soon the cracks coalesce to form a gaping hole in the
center of the room, pulling objects inside it…. I
tremble, my grip loosening out of exhaustion and pain. Tears well up in my
eyes; blurring vision. I realize that death is inevitable now. It is just a
matter of moments before I would be wedged inside the ground to be buried
alive. There
is hardly any air left in the room to breathe, just clouds of concrete dust. My
lungs choke making me all the more vulnerable. My head throbs in pain, my
cheeks wet with warm tears, cuts and bruises covering most of my shoulder and
arms. Failing to put up with reality, I close my eyes; the courage with which I
struggled so far is slowly ebbing, making me fragile, susceptible. The ray of
hope that kept me going for so long has begun to flicker; the thought of defeat
dampening my morale. The
shaking stops. I look around from under my refuge. All movements stall. Is it
over??! Is there still a possibility I can survive??!! After so much, it is
hard to believe. With stacks of concrete piling on it, the bed would give in
any moment now. I cannot stay here for long. I need to look for a safer refuge.
I wait. For some more time. And then as deftly possible, I slither out of my
hideout. Every corner of whatever remained of this room is consumed in
darkness; there is no way to figure out what lay ahead. I use my arms and legs
to feel…….and BANGGGG…!!! My feet hit the side of the bed…..and it comes
crumbling down on my legs!!!! A
sharp agonizing pain followed by complete numbness. I pass out! Minutes
pass, or maybe hours….it’s difficult to tell. I
hear a muffling sound in the distance…..nothing clear. Birds chirping??! No…. People
talking maybe??? Doesn’t
appear so…. Opening
my eyes seems like a task....my eyelids too heavy and sore. I try to move my
body but…..oucchhhh!!!!!!!!!!! An excruciating pain engulfs me….. I
have been pinned to the ground! I remember. And with that my body goes numb
again….. I couldn’t make it…I might be dead already… Just
some distance away, where the window used to be, a streak of daylight sneaks in
through the wreckage……widening….more and more…as my vision blurs away…… © 2015 Viaan |
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Added on November 13, 2015 Last Updated on November 13, 2015 |