Anxiety Wins

Anxiety is the person

That is always by my side

But I don't want there

Anxiety is the person that at 3 in the morning

Says, "Hey, wake up."

Then drags me into the kitchen

Anxiety has a funny way of making

The faint glow of the stove light

Light up my whole world

It can also make the moon feel 

Like perfect company

Like I need no one else 

Anxiety tells me that I can never be loved

But it forces me to love someone, this perfect someone

Tells me they will never love me back

Anxiety says that I am ugly, fat, unloved

But my friends tell me the opposite

I'm caught between two worlds

Anxiety is the first world

The world that says I am nothing

The world I so desperately believe

Anxiety holds my hand 

Every second, every day

But it squeezes too tight

Anxiety is clingy

Clinging to my mind

Explains to me how dark the world really is

Anxiety has done too much damage to me,

In my 13 short years of life

Who knows how much stronger it will become

Anxiety and I are in a constant battle 

For my freedom

In which it is succeeding

Anxiety had things like words, actions, and force

While I have nothing but the power 

Left in my soul that it has not taken away

But soon this power left in my soul

Will fade away,

To a place I cannot go back to.

It is much too dark there.

And in that moment,

That very moment,

I shall say,

With the smallest part of my dignity still there,

Anxiety wins...

Reviews

[Sapientiam]

Anxiety is a liar... And a thief. There is no one on Earth that doesn't deserve love, no matter how flawed. I feel anxiety, time to time. I always worry that I will ultimately fail in... Well, life. If you think about it, it's not possible to fail in life. Anxiety makes us fall faith towards irrational outcomes that only become a self-fulfilled prophecy if we continue to believe. We are strong, human. Anxiety is simply a psychological occurrence.

Moral of the story? I think you can fight this. Anxiety may win the battle, but you can prevent it from winning the war.

Thanks for sharing this!

[penguin]

Thank you for the review, and moreover, the advice.