A Thousand Weddings

On living authentically.

Although it is a Saturday, I wake up at 6 am from an uneasy sleep and look at my mobile phone. I see I have five missed calls and one voice mail. The country code of the incessant night caller is +91, which is India. I wonder what this might be about. I dial my voice mail.

I listen to the message which is delivered in Indian English with heavily trilled r’s. When the content finally reaches my brain, my heart seems to stop. My mind races backward to my last trip to India, now 8 months ago. Every minute and every hour of that journey flash before my eyes.

Early May is a great time to land in Bangalore. A balmy breeze welcomes me as I close my eyes and take a deep breath just outside of the Karnataka International Airport. The glorious fragrance of Black Cardamom and Holy Basil in the humid Indian night air is as unique as it gets. Like a master sommelier who can tell his Grand Crus in a blind tasting, as a traveling man, I know my cities just by taking in the air. Moscow is gasoline, Beijing is smog but Bangalore is heaven.

I am dead tired. After an eleven-hour flight from Europe, our Airbus-320 was kept from docking because a stray dog was moving freely about on the tarmac. It took two hours before the control tower gave us permission to taxi to the gate. The Hindustan Times of tomorrow will cover the delay stating matter-of-factly that the airport’s GHOST Team - as in Ground Handling Operations Safety - was unable to locate the proper procedure in their operations manual on how to capture the poor animal.

It has become increasingly clear to me from curious incidents like the one with the stray dog that this country is destined for spiritual rather than practical greatness. To be fast and efficient seems to go against the grain in India. For natives, to struggle along is the natural way of things, happily meandering  and straying off course in their very own dimension of time, jokingly called India Stretched Time. As a foreigner, it takes some getting used to.

I love this country because its circumstances simply force you to take a philosophical stance in life. Although we tend to look down upon their funny, half-baked approach to things, Indians seem to capture the essence of human existence better than we do. The Buddha taught that all things and beings are impermanent, and, therefore, any attachment to them is a source of unhappiness.

Indians eat and breathe this ‘Life is life’ attitude and attach less importance to the illusion of control than we do. They take joy in letting things be what they are. Thinking about this reminds me of the excellent lyrics of the song Container by Fiona Apple: “I have only one thing to do and that's to be the wave that I am and then sink back into the ocean.” 

I smile when I see the billboards outside the airport. Incredible India is the aptly chosen tagline of the Ministry of Tourism’s advertising campaign to welcome the inbound traveler. Incredible indeed.

 

This time around, I am in Bangalore to hire a new India country manager for my firm. The previous one was detained a week ago by the Fraud Investigation Office on charges of collusion with local officials. Turns out he paid speed money to get faster clearance through Indian bureaucracy, an unfortunate misinterpretation of the sense of urgency I had imposed upon him. We operate a zero tolerance policy when it comes to corruption so I had no choice but to take a firm stance. This type of firing is not uncommon among multinationals in India but a first for me. Anyway, I want to move on and reboot the complete management team so I’ve got a bunch of candidate interviews lined up in the coming days.

But this trip is special also for a more pleasant reason. I have been kindly invited to attend the marriage of Aneeta, the sophisticated and elegant young woman who is my local Operations Manager. Her name means Grace and fits her like a glove. She has a regal air about her, with her long black hair always done up and her dark brown, almond-shaped  eyes in a self-assured glance. Her soft voice demands respect and her coy smile makes me forget sometimes that we’re in a place of business.

She’s been the first in her family to earn a Ph.D. at the Indian Institute of Science, an absolute top university, and has proven herself to be invaluable in the team in the two years she’s been with us. She’s an ambitious and proud young woman, which makes her choice of a husband all the more intriguing.

The marriage, an inter-caste affair, is somewhat of a controversy in the office. Aneeta originates from Brahmin lineage, the upper crust social class in India. She has her mind set on marrying Anirudh, a young man from the backward Dalit caste. Dalit, meaning Oppressed, is the caste of Untouchables, the fifth group beyond the four-fold classification of the Indian population.

He’s an equally striking young man who goes through life undeterred by his low-born heritage. He’s strong-willed and Aneeta is what he wants, ever since he met her in the hospital where he works as a security guard. He did not hesitate to ask her for a date and his earnestness and sheer determination won her over. This has become a familiar story in the office corridors.

I have seen the couple together on company functions a couple of times and to me, they seem a match made in heaven. They have eyes only for each other and do not care what social compatibility guideline they are supposed to adhere to. I am happy for them and my gut says: “Go for It”.

But things are all but straightforward here. Caste fanatics raise hell whenever an upper caste woman marries a Dalit man because she will bear - unavoidably - a lower caste heir, thereby contaminating her social class. This sort of ‘mismatch’ often leads to violence. Many marriages are pre-arranged by the parents based on caste and horoscope sign, exactly to avoid this kind of unfortunate outcome of real love. The cynic in me understands, but the romantic says: “Screw it”.

It all seems hypocritical. Caste politics here at play are about masculine ego more than anything else. If a man of a higher station marries a Dalit woman, he is praised for his benevolence, he is said to have uplifted her. If an upper caste woman marries a Dalit man, all hell breaks loose.

 

So, I’m still apprehensive. The last thing I need is for this quagmire to seep through into the office space and pollute the already delicate working environment. My attending the wedding means taking a clear position and I need to make sure I don’t open a can of worms.

But when I arrive at the office, Aneeta is all smiles and assures me again not to worry. The two families have had intense discussions and agreed, in the end, to dismiss all outside criticism and fully support the union in the name of true love.

And to be fully validated under India’s Special Marriage Act, the couple have put up a Notice Of Intent at the Registrar’s Office to publicly declare their engagement to be married as an inter-caste couple. Much like we in Europe would put up a sign on a piece of land declaring our intention to build a house. And in effect, two fundamentalist organizations have come forward to protest, as was to be expected. But luckily, after another three months of deliberation, the State Governor has ruled that the marriage can be solemnized on the grounds of there being ‘mutual consent and soundness of mind’, the only two criteria which count under the Act.

Love overcomes all obstacles, it seems, with a little help from the government in this particular case. I decide for myself I am absolutely fine with this state of affairs. I feel relieved and buoyed.

Aneeta & Anirudh will not be the only ones in Bangalore to be joined in matrimony this week. This coming Friday, the Sixth of May, the city has a thousand weddings scheduled on the occasion of Akshaya Tritiya, a most auspicious day in the lunar calendar. According to Hindu mythology, the sacred river Ganges descended to the earth from heaven on this holy day. All of Bangalore’s wedding halls and all of its priests have been booked a year in advance. A thousand proud fathers of this city want to give their daughters away in marriage on this enchanted day because that is believed to bring great prosperity.

The city is vibrant with the preparation of a thousand nuptials. Never before have there been so many on the same day. It is hard to imagine ten weddings or a hundred. But a thousand couples getting married is a number beyond comprehension. You can feel the anticipation in the streets. Rich and poor get ready to celebrate the good fortune of their sons and daughters, assured of divine protection by a multitude of Hindu deities on this special lunar date. I am usually all business and not easily moved but this gets to me. I am absolutely thrilled to be part of this.

The big day presents itself under a scorching sun in an ultramarine sky. While being driven in a taxi through the city, there is music and flowers everywhere and literally everyone is dressed to the occasion. Even the beggars seem to own an ‘Auspicious Day’ suit for an occasion like this. Just for today, everyone manages to forget the harsh realities of life in Bengaluru. There are higher things at stake today.

I arrive at Aneeta’s posh wedding venue, the Leela Palace Kempinski, which is by far the grandest hotel in Bengaluru city. Young girls are scattering flower petals and boys are carrying metal torches emanating clouds of incense. Two giant white elephant-shaped flower sculptures guard the hotel entrance.  The hotel’s monumental architecture is inspired by the Royal Palace of Mysore, the official residence of the Maharajas who used to rule the Mysore princely state in Karnataka.

The ceremonial area itself is a beautiful elevated terrace with an opulent pool sitting on nine acres of lush tropical gardens within the hotel walls.

It’s clear that all the guests have been made aware of my coming. The family of the bride considers it a big deal that Aneeta’s hierarchical superior celebrates this life milestone in their midst. I walk through an impressive arcaded gallery and step onto the grand terrace amidst the clangs of ceremonial cymbals. My name is proclaimed by a colossal man with a deep voice and dressed completely in black. I feel self-conscious but decide to go along with the role of Distinguished Guest although I would have preferred to be observing from the side.

The bride looks absolutely gorgeous in a traditional bright red Wedding Sari, considered to be the most propitious color. Her hair is done in an elegant waterfall braid which is both sexy and chaste. The handsome groom is clearly so very much in love that it puts a smile on everybody’s face. It’s strange to think there was ever any doubt about these two getting married. Fate clearly has put its foot down here.

The couple exchanges marigold garlands of flowers and thread, symbolizing happiness. Just as the thread never leaves the flowers, even when they lose their luster with time, the married couple swears to never leave each other, through all the ups and downs of life.

The climax of the wedding, the equivalent to our ‘I do’, is the Saptapadi or ‘Seven Vows’ which bride and groom recite to each other while taking seven steps due South. Everybody cheers and claps and  the two families stand united without distinction. No doubt that Aneeta’s parents foot the bill of this extravaganza, but I think is a great gesture of open-mindedness.

After the ceremony, we get seated along heavy wooden tables in the long shadows cast by two rows of Silver Poplar trees. Giant crystal candelabras with white candles sit upon the stretched tables. The newlyweds get seated in 2 statuesque  antique chairs decorated with bright ethnic cushions and drapes. 

I take a deep breath as I look around me, holding a Bohemia Crystal glass of freshly squeezed tangerine juice and smelling the abundant lavender all around me. This place seems unreal. We could very well be a millennium back in the past, the place would look exactly like this. I feel like I have been transported to a more profound time when things were clearer, less complicated somehow.

All the men, including myself, are dressed in ethnic Dhoti Sherwani, a long coat-like garment which makes me feel part of an ancient Indian aristocratic protocol. I look at the ladies, adorned with henna patterns on their palms, hands, and feet, which gives this scene an archetypal and primeval touch. As part of an after-ceremony, Mehndi or henna is applied by the sisters of Aneeta to her hands and feet. It is believed that the bride should not work in her marital home until her Mehndi fades.

Since we have known each other, Aneeta has been aware that I have an interest in spiritualism and has seated me next to her great-grandfather, Mr. Lakshmi Kaur, who is known throughout Karnataka State as the ‘Healer of the Soul’. He is renowned for his deep expertise in Vipassanā, an age-old meditation technique to see things as they really are through self-observation, resulting in a balanced mind full of peace and compassion.

Aneeta mentioned him once to me but never would I have dreamed to have an afternoon with this wise old man in this most wonderful setting. It is Aneeta’s very personal gift to me and a thank you for my moral support through the difficult time leading up to this day. This feels truly reciprocal and I accept the gift with gratitude and enthusiasm.

During and after a splendid Chaat table with an incredible amount of deliciously spiced South-Indian dishes, I have a mind-baffling conversation with Mr. Kaur that will stay with me for as long as I live. This is what I remember.

Me: “It’s a pleasure meeting you today at the glorious occasion of your great-granddaughter’s wedding, Sir. May I ask you how old you are?”

He: “I could be ninety-four. No way to be certain.”

Me: “That would be exactly twice my age.”

He: “Age and time are an illusion. The Past and future exist only as thoughts in the present. Now is all there ever is. ”

Me: “Mm…Sir, with all due respect, it is hard to get my mind around the concept that there is no past or future. My whole life revolves around my calendar.”

He: “There is no yesterday or tomorrow, except as a memory or anticipation in your mind. There never was, nor will there ever be any other experience than present experience.”

Me: “But I always feel like the clock is ticking and I should hurry and change things because time is running out on me.”

He: “The clock is not ticking because there is no clock. Only now exists. Time is a construct of the mind, not an entity that exists in nature.”

Me: ”Right. It is true that I have trouble living in the present, I carry my past with me and I worry about the future. How do I stop that?”

He: “Do not resist the present, accept this moment as if it is exactly as you have chosen it.”

Me: “But there is so much I would like to fix about my life.”

He: “You want to change your life situation, not your life. Your life is your essence, your true self, which is already perfect. You can experience your true self in those moments when you are not caught up in your mind. Glimmers of awareness of the real you occur at key turning points when a direction in life needs to be chosen.”

Me: “So I should get to know my true self and not care about what others think of me. Is this what you mean?”

He: “The flower said: You fool! Do you imagine I blossom in order to be seen? I blossom for my own sake, and not for the sake of others. My joy consists in my being and my blossoming.”

I think about this for a minute and sense the wisdom of what this man is saying. But it feels like it is just out of reach. So I struggle on to find clarity.

Me: “I always feel my self-worth depends on my actions, not on who I am. I need to prove myself constantly. To others, but also to myself.”

He: “Stop doing and focus on being. Let the present unfold. There is no problem in this moment. It is perfect as it is.”

Me: “From what you say, it seems the present moment holds much more importance than I am aware of. You trigger a real concern in me. If I do not pay attention, my life could be passing by without me living it.”

He: “You are walking along a path at night, surrounded by a thick fog. But you have a powerful searchlight that cuts through the fog and that creates a narrow, clear space in front of you. The fog is your life situation, which includes past and future. The searchlight is your conscious presence. The clear space is the now.”

Me: “That is a powerful image…I think I am starting to understand. But it is elusive. When I try to focus on the present, my mind wanders. I’m always thinking about what I did yesterday, how I could have done it better. Or what I want tomorrow and what I need to do to get that. These thoughts take me away with them.”

He: “Observe your thoughts but do not judge them, let them pass by and do not follow them. Stay in the here and now.”

Me: “Pardon me but that seems like an impossible task. My mind is always working. It is absolutely restless, that is just who I am.”

He: “You are not your mind. Do not identify with your thoughts and feelings.”

Me: “I am sorry but what am I then?”

He: “Picture a lake high up in the mountains. You are the deep and permanent stillness at the bottom of the lake. Your thoughts are the wrinkles and waves on the surface of the water, always in motion, never enduring.”

Me: “I get it. You are telling me that I can live more authentically if I just focus on being. Rather than lose myself in the diversions of my everyday life situation…”

He: “That is the truth. Do not worry how things are, stand in awe that things exist at all.”

 

We both stop talking and we just sit in absolute silence for at least twenty minutes. Mr. Kaur signals me to stay quiet every time he sees I am about to ask another question. To him, this is clearly a natural state. I realize he does this to give me the time to let it all sink in.

He masters silence  just as he masters words. I feel there is great value in the sentences just spoken but at the same time, I feel frustrated because it feels evanescent. It seems impossible to capture the essence within my preset European frame of mind.

Dusk is setting in and the sky colors an hue of amethyst I have never seen before. Eventually, I feel I have to say something.

Me: “Well, at your age, you must have attended many weddings I guess?”

He: “This is my first wedding now.”

I smile at this perfect ending to a perfect day and my mind tunes down to enjoy the night falling over Leela Palace Gardens while I watch Anirudh inviting Aneeta for the closing dance.

All of this fades out as I return to the present day, sitting up in my bed holding my mobile phone to my ear.

The wedding images with a pixel density higher than reality have played over a matter of seconds from my memory bank. Just like a photo is the capturing of past light which we can see in the present, a memory is the impression of a past experience on our present self.

That ‘Auspicious Day Of A Thousand Weddings’ in Bangalore was an inspirational episode that was checked into a priority seat in my brain, instantly available to be re-lived with all the accompanying emotions and thoughts, just as if I were back there and then.

What triggered this vivid flashback on this Saturday morning so many months later is the voice mail from Mr. Pannerselvam, Commissioner of Police of Bengaluru City, telling me that his troopers found my name and number as an emergency contact on the phone of Mrs. Aneeta Garbinder-Pillai.

Apparently, when Aneeta came home from work on Friday evening, male university graduates from the same upper level Brahim caste stood protesting in front of her house, distributing pamphlets of their ‘Campaign Against Inter-Caste Marriage’, claiming that boys from downtrodden communities who deliberately targeted wealthy girls should be stoned to death.

When Aneeta arrived at her house and saw their provocative signboards, she angrily told them to go away. That is when one of the agitators noticed Aneeta’s belly showing her four-month pregnancy.

Anirudh was at work, unaware while Aneeta was beaten with pipe wrenches and wrecking bars by the cultured class activists until she and her unborn child died from what the forensic pathologist would later call Blunt Force Trauma.

Author's Note

Inspired by the works of Dr Irving Yalom and Eckard Tolle which I read while traveling in India.

Reviews

[Vatsal Rohilla (account..]

This is a very beautiful, powerful, spiritual and sad tale. You have highlighted all the important things. Your descriptions are very nice. I love my country, India- I am a true patriot, but I am not a nationalist. My nation has many faults, rather the people have. The Constitution of India provides the right to equality to all the Indian citizens. But, it has never been implemented properly. Even after 68 years of independence, we have the awful, horrible, hateful caste system. Politicians use it for their advantage. Our politicians give statements like, "If I come in power, I will do this and that for so and so caste or so and so community." They are merely concerned about their vote bank. This, I believe, is the major reason why the caste system still exists. Many inter-caste marriages take place, but considering the huge population of the country, such marriages are quite low in number. Again, a very important role is played by money-power. The wealthiest can get anything done- even if they are from the so-called backward classes- and the paupers have to suffer and bear hardships- even if they are from the so-called high caste. I, being a person who does not travel a lot, have never been to Bangalore. But, I have read quite a bit about it and this affords me adequate knowledge to call your descriptions "nice and vivid". You have brought out our culture very well.

Even in the 21st century, there are many who are so narrow-minded, that they believe wooing a person from another caste is a crime. We have "honour killings"- where the parents kill their child because he/she has relations with a person of a lower caste; this is odious and has now become quite rare, but it still happens.

Until and unless, we believe that all are equal and there is no such thing as caste or community or wealth, till then we cannot progress further.

I also would like to commend the conversation that you have put in. It brings alive the values, the principles which, if one applies to his/her life, then he/she can discover his/her real-self and lead a good, stress-free life which is none, but the present.

I would give it 90%. Quite a lovely piece. Keep writing.

[wordman]

interesting story,it read well,flowed well

[PhoenixDown]

As the masses say ...that ending. Bravo my friend.

[Philip Muls]

Thank you for kind feedback. Kind regards Philip

[Stan Lee]

Oh.


That last paragraph certainly brought me back to harsh reality.
I thoroughly enjoyed the romanticized and beautiful descriptions and was held spellbound throughout the entire story. Thank you for sharing this piece with us and giving a comprehensive yet engaging insight into India's diverse socioeconomic issues.

[Philip Muls]

My pleasure Andronicus, glad you liked it. Kind regards Philip

[Aventicus]

Fascinating. The story kept me intrigued and transitioned well and the ending was a striking conclusion to the philosophical narrative. Tell me, Mr. Muls, what does one do when the world around him burns with the fires creeping ever closer to his homestead? Should he patiently wait as the flames bring destruction to his house and painfully turn his skin to ash, or should he anticipate such a future and act accordingly, escaping his death? Would a man such as Lakshmi Kaur think, "If I am to burn, then I will burn," even if there is a means of escape.

[Philip Muls]

A very good question Aventicus. Do what extent can one stays 'phylosophical' amidst all the terror in the world...

[Alexandra Hounschell]

Whoaaaa that ending though
That was a really good read mate
10/5

[Philip Muls]

Thank you Alexandra, glad you liked it. Kind regards Philip

[MelissaAndres]

What an ending. You have a well written story here, minus a few tiny things that may need tightening here and there. I love your descriptions. For some reason, your sentence: "Dusk is setting in and the sky colors the tone of amethyst I have never seen before." caught me. The loveliness of the color and the awe your character must have felt to see a version of something he had never laid eyes on got me. Breathtaking.

Please feel free to read my funny little short story: A Taste of Japan. Thank you!

[Philip Muls]

Thank you Melissa. I will be sure to read yours. Kind regards Philip

[barleygirl]

WOW! Very intense ending! It almost blows all my thoughts away, that I was trying to remember, so I could write a thorough review. Your writing is quite vivid becuz of how you include tons of interesting, unusual, unknown details with just enuf explanation to prevent the storytelling from bogging down. There are many descriptions which appeal to the senses, also making your writing very rich & vivid. Frankly, I would omit the first 2 paragraphs & start the story with the 3rd. Altho I really enjoy all the preceding situational setup, I think it could be better to get to "THE CONVERSATION" a little more quickly. The way you describe the honor of being seated by this wise GG-father is very excellent. And the conversation itself is wildly well done. I mean, it's lightyears beyond the rest of this piece. You mastered the "sound" of the dialogue between the two men, as well as that delightful ending where the GG-father stops you from talking any further, forcing you to focus & process in the moment. Even tho your extensive setup is well done & interesting, I feel half the readers' eyes will glaze over & they may not get to your highly inspirational "CONVERSATION". This version is OK for a book, where the reader has decided to commit to a lengthy read, but THE CONVERSATION alone could be a riveting short story, with just a minimal intro & denouement. I don't expect you to change your story based on my comments. These are just my rambling thoughts as I read -- only intended to enhance future writings. Thanks for your kind attention.

[Philip Muls]

I appreciate your feedback. I agree it can feel a bit heavy for a short story. I tried to work the phylosophical dialogue into a broader context. On its own, it would be an essay on existentialsm I think. Lot s of work to be done. Kind regards, Philip

[Nigel Newman]

Philip Hi. This may take 2 or 3 reads, so here's a few 'starter for 10' comments.

(1) It reads very very well and is packed with authentic detail that help set the scene. I galloped through the story very easily, eagerly. Next time I'll take it more slowly!
(2) There are probably a dozen or so places where you need to do a proof read. I'm happy to point these out if you wish. None are massive or get in the way.
(3) In an objective sense I'm noting the proportions of the space taken by each 'phase' of the story. It is very 'front-ended', then there's a fair amount of middle (wedding); whilst the ending is very very short and blunt. My first instinct is this is correct. It would be tempting to get into analysis, but actually the reader has seen all of this above. The shock of the end is what makes the reader think OMG! It makes the reader reflect, because it's all there; all been laid out already.

OK more perhaps in a few days. Very very good!

Regards
Nigel

[Philip Muls]

Thank you Nigel. Yes it will require revisions I am aware. Big thanks for constructive feedback. Regards Philip