"The Day I Dropped A Heartbeat"A Poem by PoeT4994
There was one time where I dropped a heartbeat inside of your chest and I heard your hollow body shake like the tracks humming against my ear the day I layed down for you even though you were coming at me like a train,
I've never been so scared in my life.
That very same day is when I knew your knuckles would swallow my jaw bone.
When the Kodak flashbacks would stop...
Like my heartbeat,
the day I dropped it inside of your hollowed chest,
when I knocked,
it opened up like I trap door,
I've never fell so hard in my life,
but when I coughed out the dust from my lungs I saw your face etched into the window so I drew myself next to you like a ghost and watched everything I owned fade away like a yard sale,
I didn't know that everything I had held onto could go for so little,
and yet I am not shocked that we put such unrealistic prices on unsure investments like...
Like the day we find out how useless we are.
I remember the day I found out...
I dropped a heartbeat inside of your empty bones and your skin collapsed and tought me that shadows are only lies that the sun tells us everytime it talks to our skin,
you said close your eyes,
and then you told me the darkness,
it comes from inside,
to sign eyes the size of sin sought sly bought irides and if I died I lie to God about our real intentions here...
I've never held my eyes so shut in my life because I could of sworn you were a monster growing inside of me like a hunger pain for a god that would understand me.
I remember the feeling of cold sweats rought with night terror residue of gibberish and fancy demons,
you tought me how to be afraid to go to sleep at night.
Because I might wake up again in the morning.
And remember the day I dropped a heartbeat like a bomb inside of you,
how your eyes look the color of its plume and how the only thing I heard was a crows footsteps and yes I mean that that falling breath tought me how your body echoes like a gravestone in the way it turns once meaningful beings into names and dirt and Earth and you taught me that birth means nothing if your romance is fled of hope.
And I never had sweat so much in my life.
But worst of all is I have never forgave someone...
So much in my life either.
And once that heartbeat dropped in the bottom of the casket where yours used to be a fell into a darkness where I found these poems and clawed back to life...
You were shocked at how someone in a coma could cling so hard to something...
Like a missing heartbeat...
So here it is...
Our relationship is sinking.
There is a bottomless pit where our love lies lost of purgatory and we are dragging ourselves senseless trying to find meaning in the dirt collecting in between the parts of ourselves where we finally stopped caring and let voids grow like flowers from concrete I heard if you drop a heartbeat here the only thing you will hear is the echoe...
Like a pin...
Dropped in a room where a girl just told her boyfriend that she doesn't love hime like that anymore.
© 2012 PoeT4994