Dad

How I feel about my dad and exactly what I told him.

Dad

Ever since I was small

You told me to stand tall

You told me not to sweat the petty 

And everything is petty

You told me that you'd always care

And that you would always be there

You told me you'd never lie

Now I don't see why

Maybe you think I'm still a little kid

And can't understand all the things you did

You treat me like I'm only two

Then again you treat me like I'm ninety-two

What you think you know

But you really don't know

Is that my life surely blows

All I have is God

And some days it's all I can do to nod

You have me so tightly wrapped

I'm suffocating in your trap

What you don't realize is how bad you've hurt me

And you may need new glasses

'Cause you're to blind to see

You have me under your spell

And you must do magic

'Cause you knew how to do it well

You have always been the one wearing the crown

I don't even know which way is down

I can't think

Every thing just sinks

You tell me not to worry

But dad, all good things in life leave in a hurry

The end of summer

Will be a bummer

For the choice will be made

The law will be laid

Will I stay in foster care?

Or will I be left in your care?

What do I want?

I'll just be blunt

I HAVE NO F-ING CLUE!

Author's Note

A lot of pressure was put on me to decide and in the end i did, but for right then i really had no clue

Reviews

[Briana O'Connor]

I love the format of this piece. The emotion is very clear and concrete. There is vivid reality in the words you expressed on the difficult relationship one can have with a parent. It is a difficult path to have parents who may be sick. It is my personal opinion that some people just have sick minds and they can only give certain things to those they love. Some people just aren't given or refuse to grasp the tools they need to grant unconditional, non-judgemental love. The rhymes in this poem seemed a little forced and there were some places where there were no rhymes at all, but this piece was truly amazing. Thank you for sharing and keep up the good work.

[Cecile Wonder]

thank you for your review. I really appreciate it.

[Pete]

Very brave piece to write and you did it so well. I can feel the hurt & torment coming out. It came out beautifully. Well done!

[Cecile Wonder]

Thank you so much. I try my best to make my poems so that others can feel them just as much as I do

[zade]

Very powerful expression! I am really glad you are a writer!

[Legacy]

SIGH... Would love to know the outcome of your experience...
Foster care is a life only understood by those who lived it... Torn between real family and foster family can be a huge decision.

Nice write...

- Legacy

[Cecile Wonder]

I am glad you understand. I will write about the outcome as soon as it happens.

[Pax]

My guess is that, pressure is the direct result of many expectation. Yes, expectation has its good and bad sides, learning to balance them is a great challenge. What I learned in life is that we must learn to listen & feel more then understand one another.

I believe on some part of our journey in this life we often get lost, and that is pretty normal. We eventually find our way back on the right journey if we never stop trying because if we stop trying, we eventually lose many things even the compassion to understand each situation we deal with.

I find this piece very expressive, truly it tells your heart, and it has good rhymes too. Keep writing, through introspective writng we find more understanding on how to deal with our emotional delima.

[Cecile Wonder]

Thank you for your insight. I very much agree with you, and I too, hope that one day people will understand this better.

[Pax]

you are most welcome...:)

[Cecile Wonder]

:), your very sweet.

[V. P. Trujillo]

I hope your decision was one solely benefiting you. This was a well written portrayal of your feelings at that time.

[Cecile Wonder]

Yeah, it was all about me at that moment, which is something I'm not to good at. I'm better at caring for others over myself.

[V. P. Trujillo]

That is an admirable trait, though a burden to possess.

[Cecile Wonder]

Yes it is. Sometimes, I wish I knew how to be selfish. Ironic in a way, the one thing people should be less of and I need to be more of.

[Parimal Pratyush]

Although I cannot stop you from feeling this way, but for once step into your dad's shoe too.. See how it feels. Anyways, from a poem's point of view, nicely expressed. :D

[Cecile Wonder]

I know what you mean, but unfortunately that's not as easy as it seems. I have been the parent and the adult in my family since I was two. I don't even know what a childhood is. He took that away from me along with a couple others. :)