Out

Again 

He comes to my mind

Making me so aggrivated

I want to tell

I want to tell what happened

Why it went so cold

No one will believe me

No one will understand

I don't want to bring it all up again

It's killing me inside

Everyday

My hate grows stronger

It's hate

Nothing will change that

Ever again

But still

I want to know why

I want to understand

why i made decisions i did

and so did he

Will he keep his promise over years time?

I will 

If he does

It can go either way

He's burying it in the ground

I'm digging it up again

Bring it up 

To get it out

all of my emotions

feelings

madness

out

into the world

where everyone can see

understand

even judge if you choose

I just want it to be done

all of it out of my system

because as much as i try to deny it

some part of him is still inside me

not like nor love

just some part of him

that needs to get out