Doomed From the Start 2

This is more personal than anything

“Okay, bye.” 

Last words. Stupid words. Why did I say them? I don’t even know your name. 

What an enigma you were. How different from everyone else

How different from me

But

Zain, Zain, Zain, that’s not your name.

Minutes tick by

Stretching into eternity

I can’t help but check my phone

You’ve made me an addict

But

Zain, Zain, Zain, that’s not your name.

Did I think you would call back?

Yes

Am I sad you didn’t?

Yes

Am I ashamed of what I did?

No

Because

Zain, Zain, Zain, that’s not your name.

Our time always had a poem in it

Even though you called them stupid

From that first laugh

Yours or mine

It was destined to end with a sad poem

Because

Zain, Zain, Zain, that’s not your name.

Did I try and hold you in a box?

Yes, but you alluded me

And am I so easily replaceable to you?

Apparently

You, who has answered only two of my questions

And me, who you know everything about

Ah, but

Zain, Zain, Zain, that’s not your name.

Four more minutes have passed

I’ve deleted you from my phone

I can’t call you

I can’t do that to myself

You won’t call again

I know that

because

Zain, Zain, Zain, that’s not even your name.

Are you proud of me now? 

Happy to see me teary eyed with a bottle in my hand

I’m not weak. I’ll be fine tomorrow. I’ll be fine.

Because 

Zain, Zain, Zain, you never told me your name.

And that’s what it boiled down to

You were a figment of my imagination

My hopes and dreams, something that could never be

I should have known better

I did at the beginning

But then the texts were fast and sure, the conversations interesting and long

But all through that, through it all

Zain, Zain, Zain, I never knew your name. 

Reviews

[Shirlena]

I reading between the lines as well and it really doesn't sound as if he was worthy of you. It seems he didn't even respect how you felt and made light and fun out of one of your passions. Somebody who laughs at someones gift isn't a person, they are a worm. I hope you do get over him if you don't mind me saying but this write is of the chain. This is the only good Zain has done you. I'm sorry now I'm mad for you.