The Changed Me

It's all over and there's nothing I can do about it!

Anger rises up and I feel like screaming,

Feeling like to run away,

Somewhere where no one is there to say,

What crazy things I have been doing,

 

How Shall I tell my loved ones,

That I wasn't this way,

Why do they correct my fallacy,

That has arisen from their ignorant feelings,

 

I was good once,

And waited for them to smile at me,

They didn't even see me in my pains of love,

For the Love I had for them from my heart's every ounce,

 

They didn't care,

And so I left my old ways,

Looking for new worlds,

That welcomed me,

 

Today they start to pull me into their world,

Asking why I'm running away and ask to confess,

How shall I tell I can't give in to their happiness,

They loved me always but I was always ignored,

 

They thought I was a stone with no feelings,

Today although I can see their feelings I'm being a stone,

Cause I cannot change again even if I want too and I hate myself for that....

Author's Note

Hope you all like it. Appreciations and Criticisms are welcome. Thanks for reading! :)

Reviews

[Deepak Belbase]

it somehow reminds me a small child who cry when he is wounded with a needle and when he grow up he became hard enough to face the trouble of world... but it's the one step plus... a blindfold love make a man stone so understanding is necessary...this is a well crafted piece thanks for sharing

[Coyote Poetry]

I truly believe. To change a life. But leave safe ground and wander to new place.
"They didn't care,
And so I left my old ways,
Looking for new worlds,
That welcomed me,"
Sometime new place allow us to grow and become better. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[FaeryQueen]

great work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Emily]

Great poem!
Love it!
Keep it up!

[Rainslover]

Thank you so much my dear friend! :)

[Eve]

I will start with my minor critique. The second line and the second-to-last line seemed a bit grammatically incorrect or maybe just worded wrongly.
My positive views on this poem are amazing! I loved it! I can completely and entirely relate to this poem. It brought tears to my eyes just knowing that there is someone out there who is going through or has gone through the same things I have. I completely understand the feeling of being ignored by your family until you start doing something that they don't approve of. Then, they all try to fix you, when you feel as though they are the ones who broke you in the first place. Well done!

[Rainslover]

Thank you so much! Seeing someone else suffering like me I don't have words to say. It is the worst feeling ever!

I will see to change those lines.

Thank you so much again! :)

[Bear]

Critique: (Feeling like to run away) this is an incomplete sentence try "Feeling like I need to run away". There are a few places where your wording is a little off (Somewhere where no one is there to say) Somewhere where you could just as easy say "someplace where".
Very emotional piece, things can get confusing when you let your heart do your thinking or your mind do your feeling and be rules by your emotions. :~)

[Rainslover]

Thank you to correct on those lines. I will def change them.

Thank you so much my dear friend! Yeah! It's like you can't differ between what has happened and what is happening. Sigh!

Thank you! :)

[Insight "MH"]

When we get ignored by the people we love the most, it becomes hard to find consolation. When harm comes from those which are dear, it brings a double impact of hardship.
Thank you for sharing this lovely piece.

Insight.

[Rainslover]

True. When you are ignored by someone you love very much your world changes and that when it happens at a tender age, just before maturity-10-13 years your world collapses. Later no matter what you can never give them back love even if they are loving you. You just want to stay away from them, cause it reminds you of those nightmares you had.

Thank you so much for taking an insight into this poem insight! lolz! Thank you again! :)

[Insight "MH"]

LOLZ..... I am getting so much funny remarks on my username, but no hard feelings here. I love to make people smile, it is a wonderful feeling.

[Rainslover]

IKR. Actually it really has a deeper meaning! Just read ur bio, nice seeing someone caring for the children in juvenile section! :)