The Words I Never Said

These words rattle around my skull and beat against my brain, till I’ve nothing left to say.

I stand frozen, paralyzed by the fear of what would happen if you knew all the words I never said.

Would you forgive me, then apologize yourself? Could we start anew in hopes of reconciliation? Or would you be furious with me because of how I feel?

If you could take it all back, would you? Would you rewind the clock to stop your tongue before it bore the pain of a thousand whips, or would you make the same choices in hopes that my reaction would change?

You expect me to feel sorry for breaking your heart, yet you have no guilt nor shame for shattering mine.

You left me broken and beaten down and instead of reaching out a hand, you kicked the dust in my face.

And now that I’m gone, you realize you were wrong, but for what you don’t understand. And while you’re having your own pity party, I’ll be writing the words I never said, hoping you’ll see it and understand that my first heartbreak wasn’t from a boy, but from you, Dad.

Reviews

[Evelyn]

Your poem displays the need for release like lava from a volcano that has been stagnant for years. Some hold their tongue because they understand the pain when truth is brought to the surface and then there are some that lash out without a second thought. Beautiful piece, thanks for sharing.

[Poetic Beauty]

Powerful last line.this puts the poem in a whole different light. There are many strobe lines in this poem and you can feel the heart break spewing out.

[Gee]

As a father that is a sad read. I would be devastated if ever my daughter felt this way.
If true I hope time heals

[RayLynn]

Sadly this is true, my father wasn't the nicest guy and I was abused for most of my childhood.
Thanks for your support, and I'm sure you're a great dad

[Gee]

I do my best. Mine buggered off when we were kids.
What doesn't kill you.....or so they say.