Forgotten

A twisted and disturbingly morbid poem about a girl who attempts suicide. She tells you her life story before she decides her fate.Enjoy.

It's a beautiful sunny day.

But inside I  stay.

Blinds closed,windows shut.

Hiding away from the world.

Hiding where no one will find me,

Where no one  will care.

I am hidden in the closet,

the pantry bare.

If I stay hidden,

I'll starve in here.

But I don't care,

No one else will.

It's a perfect day to take a pill,

or overdose,over use, over you know how it goes.

A nous hangs above my head,

No reason to dread.

My razors lay down on the edge of bathroom sink like torture tools,

I lie the blade against my skin,

and allow it to enter in.

The blood flows down my arms,legs and thighs.

It is a beautiful day to kill ones self and die.

I must parish,

I must punish myself for what I've done.

Cat o' nine tails lash my back.

I grin,as the pain makes me think back,

to all the horrid things I have done,

All the lies I've told,

All the unfortunate events,

When that man made me come undone.

I laugh at the memories of the abduction,

The kidnapping,

I've convinced myself that I liked it,enjoyed it and deserved it.

I used to be in his basement,

Do what I was told,

This happened for years.

I was 9,10,11 years old.

I never saw the sunshine,

I was like a mole.

Blinded by the sun,

Do as I'm told.

I put the nous around my long neck,

What the heck?

No one would care anyway.

They never did,never have.

Why would they today?

I stood there, accompanied by my thoughts of suicide.

 It wouldn't be the first or the last.

The apartment looked trashed.

Bloody Tissues blanketed the floor,

from yesterday and the day before.

I would no longer cry,

Only shed a tear,

One for the pain,

One for the fear,

One for the heartache,

One for the year.

That's it,

Prince Charming will never lay eyes on me again.

My blood stained white gown,

What kind of a Princess am I?

A Princess of Death,

A Princess who wants to die.

Reviews

[C.A. Lucas]

I can't believe it! If you've at all considered suicide, or thought about anything in this poem for longer than a few weeks... I don't know. Just know that your life is very important and special and you've changed mine with your writing.
Overall, good poem.

[Soul Fire]

Thank you so much (: I've battled depression for the last few years.It's been difficult but I can get through this!

[C.A. Lucas]

Yes you can! There is always hope. All you have to do is find it :)

[Soul Fire]

I've found it

[C.A. Lucas]

Good...

[aShadowsKiss]

Your poem is sad and powerful. I got goosebumps reading it. Depression is a difficult beast to face. Know though that there's people in your life that care for you...

[Soul Fire]

Thank you very much, this wasn't intended to be about me.but thank you :)

[Balkaran Sidhu]

u can and u will battle out of this...poets can't give up they have a strong heart...

[Soul Fire]

thanks! but this characterwasnt intended to be thought as me.

[Call_Me_Miss_Imperfect]

Wow, Raya! This is so sad and depressing to read but also really good at the same time. You had my attention throughout the whole piece. It was extremely interesting as I began to ponder what the girl might do next. I kept wishing she'd put the harmful weapons down and ride a horse with Prince Charming towards the horizon and live happily ever after! :D Yeah, I do live in a fantasy world, but it's better than knives and blood right? I like the last lines the most though "What kind of a Princess am I? A Princess of Death, A Princess who wants to die." Really at the introduction of the poem, I was nodding my head and started to relate until the blade part. But you done an excellent job with this, indeed! Keep up the great work! :D

Ashley Rivers--Dream BIG and you'll win BIG:)

[Soul Fire]

Thank you so much! :D

[Coyote Poetry]

A very sad and painful poem. Your words took me to a lonely and destine place. Scary when death is more welcome then life. I like the strong description. Gave a real life feeling to the poem. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Soul Fire]

Thank you for reading it :) Thanks for the review too.I've struggled with depression for many years,and I have people in my life who have struggled/struggling too,so this poem that i made really hits home for me.