19/04/15

I miss you

I lay in bed at night

Feeling empty

Keeping my sobs quiet

I hope that no one hears me

For my love is pathetic

A girl I have never met

Never touched

Never kissed

Is my love

Romantic or sisterly?

I can not tell

But my heart aches

And in my dreams

We kiss

And we touch

We started as best friends

Messaging our day-to-day

Memories built

Embarrassing and naive

We were young

We were discovering

And I fell

It's pathetic

For it was one-sided

It was painful

And I wish that I never confessed

For I ruined everything

We are no longer close

But I still remember the day

That morning in April

My hands shaking

As I had typed

"I like girls too,
I like you."

We got together

A long distance relationship

We were both in bad places

But you pushed me away for months

To the point where it was too much

For me to be with you

I broke up with you

We didn't talk for a while

I had it rough

Problems at home

Problems with my head

Every night I had thought of you

And I wished you'd thought of me

But that would never happen

If you're reading this right now

I want you to know

I forgive you.

I hope he makes you happy.

You are forever in my heart.

I'll always be here for you.

I love you.