Muddled Words

 

 

{{{Muddled Words}}}

 

I am tired, so tired as I write these little words

My eyes are heavy and my arms are weak

But I will not stop now, I must go on

You see I want to say a few things that have been drawing on my mind

They may offend you, scare you or even push you away

You must know though, know and accept them as they are

I fear the cold lonely nights, where no smile is there to lift me

I dread the shower for thoughts can come there, thoughts that hunt me down

I can't stand alone sometimes, when things have gone astray

When people leave me, feelings leave me, I leave me

I am terrified

I am scared of myself

Of what I can do at any time of day

But

I am not scarred of you, I love you, I never wish you any harm

I need you, I crave you, you seem to make me more calm

I could wait forever just to see you smile at me

I know you may hate me at times when my feelings come and go

But I really only wish you to love me, hold me, kiss me

'Please be mine' I say in little words, words inside my head

These are words that I cannot run from

The feeling is always there, every morning, every night

I look at you and shake from a feeling overwhelmed

I smile when you're not looking

From the fluttering inside

The intensity of love, respect, want

I wish you felt the same, but I am scared you don't, I shy from you

I never know what to say, what to do, how to act

I never want to harm you, I want your happiness more then mine

I have never felt that way before

I have never put another so far before me that I forget who I am

But I want it that way

I need it that way

You don't make me choose

You don't make me cry

You don't hurt me, hit me or make me feel ashamed

I am yours, always, forever more

Know that

Just know

 

I must finish now, I am tired, ever so tired

These words make no sense in my mind

May they make it to you

I rest now, dreaming on, of you, of us

I rest now, as do you.

 

Reviews

[Siddartha Beth Pierce]

Ah, the love of one so much that you place them before yourself. Although I have heard often you must be happy with yourself in order to be happy with others. Nice write - well expressed emotions, feelings that I can truly empathize with. I believe you mean to say 'I crave you' rather than 'carve you' - perhaps I am mistaken. In any case, thank you for sharing your talent. Keep writing always!
Light,
Siddartha