It's Not Okay

It's Not Okay

A Poem by Harley Rose
"

This is to you- My "friends" -and you know who you are. If you think to yourself "No. She is talking about so-and-so, not me." You're wrong.

"
Always with my friends
I am the lowest
The target of hurtful remarks
And I am expected
To smile my way through it all
I am supposed to laugh it off
And pretend it is nothing
I am expected to be the trash of the group
To be nothing to you
But if I am first to break down
You call me weak
You are the weak ones
Too insecure to realize that what you say about me
Is actually what you are afraid others will say about you
And I will take it
For you
But not because "that is what friends do"
Because it is not
Friends support and encourage
What you do it rip apart
Going for the throats of the supposed weak
No I do it because I have to
I do it because 
When I am first to break down
You will know why
It is because of your hurtful words
That you so carelessly toss around
Like they are nothing
Like I am nothing
Am I nothing to you
Am I just some object
A punching bag of sorts
Am I even a person in your eyes
Do you find it right to do this to a friend
Am I even a friend to you
Or do you just keep me around to insult
To keep the attention on you for one more minute
But even so
Because of you
I have thought about disappearing
I have thought about letting got of it all
Friends
Family
Life
And to my supposed closest friend 
I have told you all of this
And you just used it against me in our fights
Never have you given it a second thought
You say you will change
But you never do
You are the leader of them
And their hurtful words
Because of you
I will never be the same again
My heart never fully together
You say I have changed
But it is you who hasn't grown-up
Who hasn't yet realized that what you say
Is not okay
Just because I smile and laugh
Does not make it okay
Because of you 
I cry at night
Because of you
I am even more insecure than before
Because of you
I doubt myself with the simplest things
What you have done is not okay
You say you're sorry
But that doesn't make everything better
It makes it worse 
Because now you will start again
On your supposed clean slate
But I must tell you all
Before it begins again
No matter what you say
It will never be okay
Even now
It's not okay

© 2013 Harley Rose


Author's Note

Harley Rose
Thoughts? Sorry it is so long. I had a lot to say... and I don't even know if "you" will listen. All of you.

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The length shows your emotions behind it-it is not o.k.
these do not sound like friends to me-you are truly incredible for writing this out
you have written it out so well by the end I had tears
do not carry these feelings with you forever-they are not friends
do you have things in common with them do they have the inner power to write something like this-I bet not
search for better friends-barnes and noble teen poet night,art museum groups,science centers,library reading and writing groups-you will find real friends
thank you so sorry I got so into it but you have shared many emotions and I love it!!

Posted 11 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Harley Rose

11 Years Ago

Thank you



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TONS of emotion just comes powering off the page. If they don't listen just punk then in the face that usually gets people's attention. :)

Posted 10 Years Ago


My boyfriends friends make him feel the same way. They think that just because he wont retaliate that they can pick on him. They think there so much better then him but the truth is he is way better then them because when his friends need him he is there for them no matter how badly they treat him. Your "friends" sound like they need a good kick in the a*s, you must be one hell of a friend to put up with that much s**t. I did the same thing to one of my friends once I choose my X over her biggest mistake of my life, but you know what once I came around and realized I had fucked up. She forgave me which shows who the stronger friend is. Just remember forgiveness is a wonderful thing to have but don't let those around you abuse it. If your friends suck and they cant get it thru their sculls go make new friends! :P I hope that made sense but probably not. Anyways I like your poem it was full of raw emotions.

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Very powerful poem

Posted 10 Years Ago


0 of 1 people found this review constructive.

NO IT'S NOT OKAY. very powerful emotions though out the entire poem. Great Write!!!

Posted 10 Years Ago


0 of 1 people found this review constructive.

This almost made me shed a tear. The way you bare your soul and your pain is so artfully done that it blew me away. Your words bring forth a sense of desperation and hurt, making me want to strangle slowly all of those that made you feel this way, even though one of your tormentors is me. I'm so sorry for making you feel worthless, because you aren't. You are my best friend and you are the most beautiful, amazing girl I have ever met. I'm ashamed to have ever brought out these feelings in you. I know my apology isn't worth jack s**t, and it's coming way too late, but I'm going to say it anyways.
I'm sorry.

Posted 11 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

its good

Posted 11 Years Ago


0 of 1 people found this review constructive.

honesty from your soul ,wonderfully honest and true, friends are a supportive group that wants your success and happiness in life, some friends are anchors, only to drag you down , you are the sun ,shining bright, surround yourself with stars that will fuel you, sounds like a classic ( treat you like s**t because I'm f***ed up in my head ) person or people ,anyway I liked the write

Posted 11 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Harley Rose

11 Years Ago

Thank you
The length shows your emotions behind it-it is not o.k.
these do not sound like friends to me-you are truly incredible for writing this out
you have written it out so well by the end I had tears
do not carry these feelings with you forever-they are not friends
do you have things in common with them do they have the inner power to write something like this-I bet not
search for better friends-barnes and noble teen poet night,art museum groups,science centers,library reading and writing groups-you will find real friends
thank you so sorry I got so into it but you have shared many emotions and I love it!!

Posted 11 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Harley Rose

11 Years Ago

Thank you

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