Love is unedited

I wish you were the man you look like but you act like a boy
This is all consuming be had taken such a toll on me because I believed
It was true
You were more a man then the boy I left yesterday but with time you proved me wrong again
I lost myself with you because I'm so busy trying to find you because you don't even know who you are
You just know who you want to be
But I know who I am and where I want to continue to go but with you I get derailed and lose something that drives me because I'm constantly coping with you
I can't live two lives

I look at you see the man I want to spend my life with
Then I spend time with you all you really are is a idea I'm physically holding on too
I am holding on to hopes and dreams of something I see before it's actually there
And in return I lose grip of my heart
My soul my ground

You love me
But you don't know how to love me
What it means to love ME
I want more than you have to give
I want you but you don't exist
I want you but you give me flowers
I want you but give me loyalty
I want you but you give the world
I want you
But who are you
I don't know who
I don't want the things this person has to offer because he's not who I want
Do you know
Me ?
Who are you are with me
Who you are without me
Do your parents know you
Do your friends
Or do they see the same you I see
The you you show
So consumed with this world don't even care who you are living in it
Just living

But how can you live right
If you don't even know what's wrong for you
When you don't know who the you is that you want to be
You show the world one face but I have to deal with many

I am not perfect but I am true to who I am in the mirror and outside the door
I share my faults be my perfections
My dreams and my distaste
My love me or hate me because I will keep going
My bad my good my ugly
Take me or leave me
Understand me or ignore me
Take me as I am cuz this is all I have to give

And I want to give it to you but I never know
Who the you is that I'm giving it to
The charmer
The lover
The boy
The wanna be
I take my pain and show it I take my fear I show it because I am no underdog and want to rise where I should fall
To learn where I should be mistaken
To hurt so that I remember

Someone is going to love the you that I deserved
Someone is going to be happy because of my despair
Because I was too early
Someone is going to see your smirk
Your dimple and feel what was taken from me
Someone won't have to be strong because I was and you will be
Someone else isnt going to get to be me
Because I am scrambled
Because I'm effected
Because I'm here now
Broken because I deserve the you , you will be
Because I got the you , you were learning from


But I see you, I've always seen you
From the beginning I was just to early in getting ..... What isn't you yet

I'm can't let go
Even though I can't hold on any longer
Because this rug burn hurts
it hurts even more because you tried to stop the pain

How do you let go of the beautiful rose that pricked you before it was groomed to be apart of the bouquet .
The bouquet that you believed to be meant for you

We all are own own demise because even as I lay here mourning you before I've let you go , I'm holding on because it's the only you I will ever get . The only you I will get to love
The you I will have to watch be loved because we couldn't

Author's Note

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