Panic

My heart is racing

My head is spinning

Thoughts jumble and clash in my head

Dark thoughts that rise with the moon

And set with the sun

Slowly I fall to the floor

Head between my knees

Rocking:

Backwards

Forwards

Backwards

Forwards

My voice pulls at the chains that bind it to my throat

Weak, weak chains that are slowly bending

My trembling hand reaches for the phone

Just one simple text

One text that will end this 

Your number is displayed on the screen

My shaking fingers linger above your smiling face

Will you care?

Will you listen to my caged voice

And read the words that pour from my fingertips?

Will you see my face pop up on your screen

And proceed to turn off your phone?

Will you take me seriously

Or laugh at my foolishness?

Will you acknowledge the demons that haunt me

Or will you think me a petty child?

I look again at your face on my screen

And slowly

I turn it off

That night I stay on the floor

Allowing the waves of panic to wash over me

Until sleep numbs me completely

Tomorrow

As I awake by myself

I prepare for yet another day

Another day I must pretend

That nothing

Ever

Happened

Author's Note

Not my best, but the emotions are true.

Reviews

[Vertigo Cat1111]

The emotions were written so perfectly, but the part that really got me was at the end.

'I prepare for yet another day
Another day I must pretend
That nothing
Ever
Happened'

Isn't that too true? We've all felt such strong emotions before, in this poem, it's panic, and no matter how heart-wrenching and horrifying it is, we don't tell anyone, we pretend it never happened. Keep writing because I thought the emotion potrayed in this was wonderful!

[Aarea]

Nice work. You portrayed your feelings very well. Who hasn't felt that horrible panic? Good writing!

[Sami Khalil]

A good write Rosie. Pen on...:)..............