I Hate You

I used to think

I hated you for hurting me.

That's not entirely true.

I hate you

For hurting that innocent

Five year old girl,

Who used to idle you.

For taking advantage of her innocents,

And using it against her

For your own sick needs.

For taking her innocence away,

Before she ever got to enjoy it.

I hate you

For making her think

It was her own fault.

For making her

Think of you as a brother,

Even after what you did

'Cause she felt guilty.

I hate you

For taking away her trusting side,

So she no longer trusts herself,

Her friends,

Or her family.

I hate you

For making her think

She wasn't worthy of a friend.

Until she realized

It's not her fault.

I hate you

For making her guarded

Against anything

Everything

And everyone

I hate you

For making her hate herself.

For making her feel

She isn't worth the life she has.

For making her

Want to take her life.

I hate you

For making her mind so confused

She takes a knife to her skin

To silence the screaming inside.

For putting her in so much pain,

She relies on drugs and alcohol

To simply numb herself.

I hate you

For making her self conscious.

For making her think

No one will ever want her

Because she's already ruined.

I hate you

For making her scared of you

and the people around her.

For making her paranoid

That they'll hurt her too.

I hate you

For turning her into a monster.

For haunting her mind so badly

She wakes up in the night screaming.

For turning that happy little girl

Into me.

But most of all,

I hate you for enjoying it.

For doing it without remorse,

Mercy,

Or guilt.

So no,

I don't hate you for hurting me.

I hate you for so much more.

I hope you rot in hell

You son of a b***h.

Reviews

[C. Rose]

"I hate you .. for turning her .. into me" - very powerful.

I don't know if you are accepting edits or not, so I'll limit myself to two.
idle/idol
innocents/innocence

Well penned :)

[Broken.buddy]

Wow!, I hope this is not real. I can relate. I know someone who had the same experience. I feel for you. This poem speaks out very well. Good job on bringing the emotions out.

[Rowena Slade]

All of my poetry is real, they are basically my form of a journal. Thank you for your review.