used to being used

can you hear me?

i’m not here to take,

at least not intentionally

i am not here to usurp you

not here to catch you in a fault

not here to take one step ahead of you

or to gloat in knowing

of what you suspect of me

can you hear?

i will not take what is yours

unless it’s freely offered

i walk the straight and narrow

the tightrope you’ve stretched for me

i came at your request

giving you my best

never had a motive to do you in

you heard other minds

putting me to the test

i endured and tried

you tried me and found me pure

until the whispers in your ears

cut a wedge between us two

are you lonely

are you in need

do those that came in between,

can they give you all i did?

if so,

i hope you remember

what you heard

as for me

i can hear and see

i replay the scenes in my mind

the things i did for you

i did with a pure intent of heart

i suffered at your disposal

sure, you paid me what was due

but money doesn't take the place of friendships

i've tried the same rules of thumb of right

and with the same results again

shall i quit?

shall i find another one to take you place?

i know full well the same results

the outcome will end just like this again

shall i quit?

of course i won't

i can't

it means, if i did

i'd have to quit on myself

can you hear me?

i'm still here for you

all i need is acknowledgement

you distrusted me without a cause

you know that i am always here for you

All i need is that you must know

i never meant to do you harm