Alcohol

A bit dark sorry. Writing it helps it not be so true.

clawing

but soft.

I don't suspect you coming

like tree roots

like ice crystals

slowly breaking their way in

through

sneaking up on me and

taking apart things that were whole.

Now they have their claws in me.

I'm stuck.

Frozen.

such a waste.

tantalizing

fun adventure time!!

dancing, and such good music

Lights, noise, another drink!!!

Let me buy you one!

new boys, so exciting!

He gives me special eyes

takes me home

and I think

maybe I'm special after all!

Maybe I'm worth it.

Maybe I'm OK.

ouch.

fell down again.

Blame the stairs

And make excuses...

fix the scrapes and hide the bruises.

pretend everything is OK.

Everything IS OK.

I am OK.

Deep breath

one 

two

three...

have another shot.

Show up drunk to work the next day.

No one knows?

no one knows.

It's OK.

I'm OK.

Come home

shaking...

can't hold the glass

steady now, don't spill.

tremble shot time.

one

two

three

...

OK.I feel better now.

One more

just to be sure.

did I feed the dog?

When did she last pee?

Oh s**t.

Go outside in the rain

no umbrella

and she runs free.

away

Come back!!!

Come back please

come back come back

PLEASE!!! PLEASE!!!!

I need you.

don't leave me here alone.

You are all I have left.

I'm sorry I couldn't do better. 

I love you. 

She comes

head sagging.

feet dragging.

It's almost worse to see her this way. 

Puke stains on her ears and dead eyes

like mine

Oh s**t.

What are we going to do.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Very nice use of thoughts and actions in the poem. I like the short sentences and the thoughts leading to a desperate ending. I was a drinker once. Drinking does make us regret some decisions. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[RubyOmma]

Thank you for commenting and reading, I appreciate you taking thing time to review. :)

[Mockingbird]

i imagine this is what it is like to be alcoholic and in denial, but not really. excuses are what gives it away. the shakes that come with withdrawal. these are great descriptions of an alcoholic's plight. i think it is only when the person honestly admits they have a problem and admits that their life has become unmanageable will they seek help and support. even a day of sobriety is progress towards recovery. this is an exceptional depiction and illustration of one who has a problem and a story that could help someone else who is in the same boat. excellent job.

[Briana O'Connor]

A heart breaking expression of the disease of alcoholism. The emotions tugged at the strings in my heart causing memories of my own active alcoholism. Very well done. Thank you for sharing and please return the favor by reviewing one of my pieces.

[Coyote Song]

Great writing. A sad tale in this but its well presented. It's written in such a way the reader can relate to the person/voice telling the tale. You have a fantastic writing style.

[RubyOmma]

Thank you for the comments!! I appreciate you taking the time.

[Coyote Song]

You are very welcome.