No title. just eternal emptiness

No title. just eternal emptiness

A Poem by RubyOmma
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An old poem from 12 years ago.

"
I can't remember
how it felt
when you were here;
Taking up my time
filling up my heart...
sucking out my soul. 

My only love
my greatest fear
torn an tangled.
Intertwined with every
twist and pull 
of life
Driving the hate into 
my heart. 

More than a dagger
More than a poison
More than a person.

Then my everything
every element
my emotional stability
jerked out,
Suddenly 

My marble statue of 
Pride and honor
vanished

Now unexpected torment

I was supported 
only
by visions of you
and me. 

They quickly dropped me 
through myself
out myself
and I fell
into the pits of hell

There I will reamain
the devil's w***e
forever.

Not dead,
but living only for the 
thought of death,

I release my pain and torment 
as a silent tear
that makes pilgramage 
down my cheeks
only to find a breast heavy
with sorrow.
Barely beating,
my broken heart. 

Trust
Trust is something I know not
Allowing someone to see you
as you truely are. 

To rise up that curtain of death
and shout
"I am Lazarus!
Come from the dead!
I was dead
and now I live.

But then to realize
How I hate myself
despised and neglected.

Trust...
is love. 

I could no more love
and empty beach or 
leave lost tree
than I could love this self. 

I am Beelzebub's concubine.
Loathing and misery are my lungs
Jealousy my brain
and perseverance my heart. 

I have no hope. 

© 2015 RubyOmma


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It doesnt come much darker than this Ruby. And while some people deserve to dwell in darkness I dont feel that this is the case with the speaker - the self loathing is very sad. Powerful phrases here seem to condemn too - "Beelzebub's Concubine' - I was blown away by that phrase.


Posted 9 Years Ago


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I like it so much. Thanks for sharing.

Posted 8 Years Ago


It doesnt come much darker than this Ruby. And while some people deserve to dwell in darkness I dont feel that this is the case with the speaker - the self loathing is very sad. Powerful phrases here seem to condemn too - "Beelzebub's Concubine' - I was blown away by that phrase.


Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

What a great poem... so you have always been a great writer since this was from 12 years ago.... good work my friend :)

Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.


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RubyOmma

Pohang/Deagu, Gyeongsandbuk do, South Korea



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