SUICIDE

We live in a system that espouses merit, equality, and a level playing field, but exalts those with wealth, power, and celebrity, however gained.

This heavy chain
I'll take it off now

The weight's lifted
I am free

The day I've yearn
The place I have always dreamed

I thought of it as
Things that only exist within

I step outside
Able to see the place where it all began

The world has changed
Even the people are different

The clock has turned around
There is no getting out

Greed overlooks justice
From the highest of all thrones

A control so overwhelming
And the chains crawl towards me

I run and stagger
Across the vast forests and seas

The path of memories
Housing all of what lies within

Shouting, yelling screaming for help
Hope, truth, freedom

Oh, my fellow ones!
Why have you gone astray?

Thirst for money, hungry for power
Lust for position, envy others

Boasts of unimportance, Hate the weak
Vain of glory, Do nothing

The world has been deprived
The self continues to lie

Will I let myself live with this?
All the hatred, sufferings and pain

I trip and fall sideways
I hear the locks clicked around my limbs

I can't bear it anymore
I am powerless against them

Deep in the corner
I call for help

I know you can hear my plea
You just pretend you can't

This ugly world of mine
Does not deserve to be seen anymore

Can someone save it?
Better do it sooner

Or else people like me
Will sink even further into the dark

I'm sorry
I guess it's the only way

To help them realize what they've done
I've come to terms with no one

I'm just one of the victims
And there will be many more to come

Author's Note

This poem is a tribute to a fellow university student, a victim of forced LOA, who committed suicide last March 15. Due to her inability to pay her tuition, our university, a public school funded by the government, forced her to file LOA. Since then, she felt ashamed of going to school because she is not fully enrolled. To think that a portion of the people's taxes have been allocated for the university's funds, isn't it ironic to see that money has been the issue here? The current administration just showed its inability to fulfill the dreams of poor students to have equal educational rights with others.
Rest in peace, love. We pray for your soul to rest now and continue to fight for your sake.
P.S. I'm not encouraging anyone to commit suicide.

Reviews

[khalid]

i dont think there would be any reason to make a person commit suicide. i know life has got so much more harder, i know that people have become much more careless and selfish, but even though, we must be strong enough to be able to survive. if she couldnt pay the university fees, she kills herself? i dont think this is really logic, let the university go to hell and live your life even if you cant continue in university. i feel really sad reading this. i think that capitalism is the worse economic strategy people have ever done. capitalism steps on the poor to make the wealthy more wealthy. how comes that united states helps other countries while it doesnt help her own people? i think there must be a way to help needy students there either through the government or businessmen who donno where to pay their money..

[Margarette]

Yeah, I agree. Capitalism is more commonly practiced now and corporations, stockholders and businessmen are now leading as the country's greedy leaders. She committed suicide because she felt embarrassed going to school not fully enrolled since her father's only income as a driver cannot be allotted to pay her whole tuition fee. She also worked desperately to compensate for such loss but it's not enough. Moreso, the admin forced her to have an LOA just because she can't pay the tuition fee. I'm so angry at them! These students are the only hope for a brighter future and they have taken away their liberty of having equal educational rights with others. Also, our university is being funded by the government but the allocated budget is not enough to suffice the whole student body since corrupt officials put some of it in their pockets.
Thanks for the thoughtful review. I really appreciate the feedback.

[Coyote Poetry]

Your words are true. I believe need to cut the 1.2 trillion on war and offer free education. Old wise man once said. "Children are the wealth of a country." Here in the USA. Children education is cut first and military gets more. Want a sad fact. USA spend more money on war than the complete world. This is sad. I pray we get real leaders with wisdom. The children pay for the mistakes of bad leadership. Thank you for the outstanding poem.
Coyote

[Jack...]

To feel ashamed in my opinion is caused by peer pressure. Indeed, this world is a screwed up mess, but...you must always believe in yourself, for at times you will be the only one who deos. Very sad and nice of you to write this for the friend you lost.

[Carolann Dowsett]

This is full of truth, the world truly is in a bad place and it is destined to only get worse. You have written this beautifully. Though, it is very, very sad.

[Mary Christabel George]

Margarette, It truly touches me that you have written something for a student who couldn't pay her tuition fees & committed suicide. And "Suicide" is narrated so well showing ills of our system. A pat on your back from ma end. I like you & your work here.
(RIP love)

[Margarette]

Thank you and thanks for the concern! She will be very happy wherever she is right now.

[Mary Christabel George]

:)

[kublakhan27]

It's truly a tragedy that such a thing would happen at an age when dreams are supposed to take shape...it's hard to be optimistic about anything when these kinds of stories pop up on a daily basis, but as you say, we must stay strong for the memory of a life that was ended far too early. An emotional and brilliant piece.

[Margarette]

Yes, I truly agree with you. She's young, she's better off as one who will change the world into a better one. Indeed, it's a tragic moment for all of us at the university.

[Ahmad Cox]

Thank you for posting such a strong tribute and reminder to the ones that are on the brink that need our help the most and for being that herald of truth for your friend who passed away. I am sure she truly appreciates it and is watching over and protecting you now.

[Margarette]

You are welcome! I am so deeply touched by such reason that I can't help but write it and make it a tribute for her sake. Even though we are not friends and not related in course (i'm a biology student, she's taking behavioral science), I can empathize with her. Anyway, thanks for the review! You made my day!

[s y e]

Woah, this was such a moving read, it was so emotional and relate-able to alot of people.

It is a shame what happened to the student that took her life, it is terrible and so sad when someone takes their own life.

What a piece, very well written.

[Margarette]

Yes, the student felt so ashamed everytime she went to school because she was not fully enrolled. Also she strived to pay it all by working because her father's only income as a taxi driver is not enough to support the whole family. Thanks for the concern! I really appreciate it.

[Frieda P]

Deeply moving read, I've been personally affected by suicide, lost my sister Lee to this horrific force. That's a real shame that the student took her life in desperation as such....your words were eloquent and quite affecting...

[Margarette]

Oh, I'm sorry to hear. I express my condolences to your sister. Yeah, it's really sad to think that she died because the admin forced to her such financial stress.

[Frieda P]

Thanks Margarette, yes such a pity in the prime of life no less....for both their souls.