Tired

I'm tired of this world beating me

Tired of being everyone's punching bag

Tired of crying my eyes out till the life has left them 

Tired of the yelling

I'm tired of trying

Tired of having my flaws and mistakes thrown in my face as if they don't haunt my every move

Tired of knowing I am not good enough

Tired of knowing I will never be good enough

I'm tired of waiting

Tired of wondering if it does get better

Tired of people trying to claim my body

When was it ever anyone's but mine. 

I'm tired of Fighting

Tired of waking up and pretending

Tired of asking why

Tired of having no one understand the mental illness I cannot fight alone.

I'm tired of my house mates not getting I'm not like them

Tired of them not realizing I will never be what they want

Tired of not having a home or family to call my own

Tired of getting close to anyone in fear that they may hurt

Tired of not having the power to change what's occurring

I'm tired of being alone

Tired of trying to be better when nothing comes of it

Tired of the self hating

I'm tired of life

Tired of watching it all burn around me

Tired of feeling weak and worthless

But most of all I'm tired of living

Tired of living in a world were my actions, words, and body can never be mine

Tired of world were Mental illness is not "real"

Tired of a world were those who suffer suffer in silence.

Tired of a world were a woman's body is not her's

Tired of a world were a 16 yr old can be pregnant but god forbid she be a lesbian

Tired of a living in a world were parents disown their son for being gay

Tired of a world were words like f****t and gay get toss like a coin into a wishing well

I'm tired for those who keep fighting

Tired of the worry 

Tired of the sickness

Tired of society 

Who are you to decide is a person is good enough

Who are you to leave a child when they need you

Who are you to tell a woman what she can do with her body

I am tired of being choices 

Nobody

No one deserves to feel this tired.