Instead

Instead

A Poem by TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror



I played Russian Roulette today

The trigger felt amazing

Your shadow stopped me

I felt complete

To destroy you

Instead

 

Just like when you say Baby

And smile bright

Like a circus light 

I love you

Instead

 

I planned your Demise today

The trigger felt amazing

My shadow stopped me

I felt complete

To destroy myself

Instead

 

Just like when I say Baby

And lie in spite

This is my right

That I love you

Instead

 

I had a Blade made just for two 

The look and feel is amazing

There will be no shadows in this foreplay

I felt complete

To destroy Us

Instead

 

Just like when we say Baby

Turning in that perfect Circle

Like a Merry go round

That I perfectly hate you

Instead

 











© 2017 TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror



Author's Note

TerryDarcy-Ryan   akaSheerTerror
Instead, is about honesty. I lived with denial for a very long time, I had a better relationship with denial than my own husband. There is a breaking point, its different for everyone. I now know mine. This poem represents my escape from denial, my marriage and a laundry list of thing that are codependent upon living this way. I never actually played Russian Roulette, the symbolism is perfect for the final chapter of my marriage. My ex and I are so volatile we still can not be in the same room together after 3 years. Poetry is a release, every Poem comes from the experience and then I let it go. If your still reading I thank you and GOD BLESS.

Sheer Terror

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This is great. Very beautifully written. Keep writing! :)

Posted 3 Months Ago


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*I had a Blade made just for two
The look and feel is amazing
There will be no shadows in this foreplay
I felt complete
To destroy Us
Instead*

Some things end... Explosively... Yet even more brilliance displayed here... Bravo'

Posted 4 Months Ago


TerryDarcy-Ryan   akaSheerTerror

4 Months Ago

Mr. Silente these mere words set me free. I have never looked back. Than you for this review
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The right words make art of the ugliest emotions. I really like the layout too, repeating but still evolving.

Posted 7 Months Ago


TerryDarcy-Ryan   akaSheerTerror

7 Months Ago

Yes I agree with you it can be powerful to take an experience from an ugly place to a place that emp.. read more
Amazing poem I love all the symbolism. I know how you feel I have lived in denial my whole life and am finally escaping it.

Posted 9 Months Ago


TerryDarcy-Ryan   akaSheerTerror

8 Months Ago

Thank you for taking the time to read and review.
God Bless
I love all the metaphors and similes. Especially 'smile bright like a circus light".

Posted 10 Months Ago


TerryDarcy-Ryan   akaSheerTerror

10 Months Ago

Thank you so much for taking the time to read and review " Instead ". The line you refer to, I am d.. read more
A beautiful juxtaposition between Love and Hate. Love and Hate are strange bedfellows, but they follow a somewhat common pattern in life.

I'm sorry that you and a former love hate one another so much but that is where true inspiration comes into being; Experiences are what guide us, what train us to be the people we are.

A depressingly good poem about the illustration of Love and Hate.

Posted 10 Months Ago


I thought it was amazing! I truly enjoyed the symbolism and the deep feelings that you touched on. I felt so nervous and excited waiting to see what happened as I read, really wonderful!

Posted 10 Months Ago


I am quite stunned reading this , SK
What to say....I felt this too deep
The hatred is a strange word sometimes it has its origin from the word called love...love is hatefully dangerous....instead you got the freedom at the end..
I love your writing for the originality it holds.
Keep up the good work.

Posted 10 Months Ago


hardcore. the poem was sharp, and that's what you have to be to make it through this. This must have taken some supernatural endurance. work like this helps a lot of people who are losing steam. Thanks!

Posted 10 Months Ago


Hello, SheerTerror! :)
I enjoyed your metaphors and the strong emotion here. The phrasing is interesting.

Posted 10 Months Ago



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When I was a young girl I was your average Tomboy. I lived to watch Star Trek the only thing that could take me away from the voyages of the Star Ship Enterprise was playing Baseball with the boys. .. more..

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