OBLIVION

                                                                                 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                   

                                                                                                                                                                     

there’s a traitor bred deep inside me

circling sublime deceiving my mind

beating this heart as a clenched fist keeping time

a repetition I have fought, like tradition

an unwinding defines inception

 

seditions equal 1000 miles in disgrace

dare I tell you of my place

a death walks in every shadow

attached to the silhouette like a black cat

iniquities playground complete with a shrouded habit

privileged phantom betrayer is mine

she emerges and begs for fires within

and enormous qualities of compassion

dancing for keeps with oppression  

no turning back for the high cost of reflection

there is no place to hide decision

no unharmed order for reason

no intellect in the drug chosen

desire is convicted, confined and blind

the first time you cheat life of pains design

the feel of cold steel under my skin

cracks the hollow’s door completely open

step into and follow Oblivion’s seduction

her abyss has no reminisce

dark ambitions grasping hopeless

a single drop of blood escapes

accepting my breath as a promise of bliss

deceiver, a coward stealing my kiss

exposed with only one thing left to see

the dark parts inside of me

Terry D'Arcy-Ryan

 

Author's Note

A compulsive behavior you repeat again and then again despite the consequences. Despite the consequences, this is where your addiction is just you average monster or the Devil himself. I have been sober since 12-13-13 this time and I have fought this battle most of my life. Oblivion, will always be there to betray me, again and then again. This moment is all I can commit to, I trust no other way. One moment at a time, if you are still reading thank you and God Bless

Sheer Terror

Reviews

[sette]

there is a continuous flow of emotions in this poem. very enlightening too

[flyingfree]

I can feel the emotions in this.., something I have been through. Oblivion I have been chasing and has been chasing me.

[Nipplegrinder]

I relate to this because of the struggles of my siblings. Wonderfully executed. Vibrant descriptions of the betrayal of oneself.

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

I am well invested in this poem and happy with the outcome. I appreciate when others relate, whether it is drugs or something else that keeps one bound to betrayal. Thank you for the great review.

Sheer Terror

[Nipplegrinder]

My sincere pleasure. I lived with heroin in the home I grew up in. Though I was gifted in school, my family thought they kept the bad parts from me. Nah. They didn't.

[Jamieya B-Johnson]

I always wanted to write in a story-like structure. You paint a graceful picture of every word.

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

Jamieya, what a great review I thank you for taking the time and leaving a review.

Sheer Terror

[AliceBarnes]

Loved the inclusion of the photos in this poem and it was really a joy to read. A really touching subject that you covered, and it was made more so when I read in the authors note that you have been 12-13-13. I am sorry to hear how long it went on for but I am glad that you managed to pull through. Really lovely that you make your poems relate able. Thank you for sending me a read request.

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

Thank you for the great review and personal note.

Sheer Terror

[KCthelastboyscout]

I'm always impressed how skillful you are with your words.No matter your flaw or failing addiction is powerful and seductive. It can make servants of us all.More than a pleasure to read

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

KC,
I was asked by one of my children what it was like to use heroin. This has so many conflicts already for a child to ask, she was 16 and I wrote this as a description and it became this poem. The way in which the drug takes you but my friend it is more than that. I wanted her to understand the betrayal of myself the traitor. I am proud of this piece because it is a point of complete honesty.
Thank you so much for the incredible review.

Sheer Terror

[Weeping willow]

such deep meanings hanging inside the words,flowing through to the mind as you read this poem;-]

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

Thank you Weeping Willow I appreciate your meaningful review.

[TheUnrulyWriter]

One thing I really, really, love about your poems is how I can always relate to the meanings behind them, despite my experiences being so different from yours. I have never done drugs or drank in my life, but these words still hit me so hard. I think your work is really going to go places.

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

You say you have never done drugs or drank. That is good I can barely comprehend. Life can and will tear at our center. Depending on how we have been conditioned to survive. The hardest stuff that's what this is about and bigger than addiction. Do you let it have you, change you , twist you or destroy you. I have a poem for every scar for every battle. I appreciate your words thank you very much and
God Bless

Sheer Terror

[Coyote Poetry]

This is poetry my friend. Hard, cold and direct. Every set of lines left the reader with something to think about. I had to read again. Powerful and worthwhile poetry. A outstanding poem.
Coyote

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

Thank you so much Coyote your words are always
Encouraging. God Bless

Sheer Terror

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome my friend.

[wordman]

well i am sorry about natalie ,and i know you are strong,i am in your corner rooting for you,and you wrote it in passion