OBLIVION

                                                                                 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                   

                                                                                                                                                                     

there’s a traitor bred deep inside me

circling sublime deceiving my mind

beating this heart as a clenched fist keeping time

a repetition I have fought, like tradition

an unwinding defines inception

 

seditions equal 1000 miles in disgrace

dare I tell you of my place

a death walks in every shadow

attached to the silhouette like a black cat

iniquities playground complete with a shrouded habit

privileged phantom betrayer is mine

she emerges and begs for fires within

and enormous qualities of compassion

dancing for keeps with oppression  

no turning back for the high cost of reflection

there is no place to hide decision

no unharmed order for reason

no intellect in the drug chosen

desire is convicted, confined and blind

the first time you cheat life of pains design

the feel of cold steel under my skin

cracks the hollow’s door completely open

step into and follow Oblivion’s seduction

her abyss has no reminisce

dark ambitions grasping hopeless

a single drop of blood escapes

accepting my breath as a promise of bliss

deceiver, a coward stealing my kiss

exposed with only one thing left to see

the dark parts inside of me

Terry D'Arcy-Ryan

 

Author's Note

A compulsive behavior you repeat again and then again despite the consequences. Despite the consequences, this is where your addiction is just you average monster or the Devil himself. I have been sober since 12-13-13 this time and I have fought this battle most of my life. Oblivion, will always be there to betray me, again and then again. This moment is all I can commit to, I trust no other way. One moment at a time, if you are still reading thank you and God Bless

Sheer Terror

Reviews

[Pete]

powerful and sobering (pun intended). you have such a way with words. i always mutter 'Wow' as i partake of your emphatic writes. such strength inside of you flows through your words. to mask what lies within you with addiction would be criminal in itself. you always get to the heart of a matter and tug at the heart strings. intriguing pics. you always bless the reader with strong, heartfelt truth while keeping it real and creative!

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

Pete I thank you for such encouraging words I get braver with every write. God Bless

[Pete]

nothing to be hesitant about. your writes rock! let 'em rip girl!

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

Thank you Pete I got a handful on deck. You Rock!

[Pete]

thumbs up. :)

[Manasa.L]

I have no words to describe this writing. I just wish that every pain and sorrows of your life be healed and happiness be bestowed on you.
Nobody can fulfill the loss you have undergone, you may be addicted but that's all to forget your pain. Yet you have to fight back from your addiction and stay away from it. This might make your daughter happy, who is watching you from somewhere else.
Thanks for sharing, God bless you too. Loved your writing, its just amazing.

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

Thank you for your kind words it is greatly appreciated. Yes grief can blind you but with time you see and have a reason to fight. God Bless

Sheer Terror