Face to face at the house of corrections

Laying awake
Reminding me of back when
Things were simple
Nothing had fallen apart yet
Because you were still here
Now all I can do
I lay here
And try to remind myself
Of when you cared
Maybe you never did
Maybe I was just another face in passing to you
Maybe you were scared to be alone
Just like I’m scared of my own thoughts now
Trying desperately to replace your thoughts
With someone like you
Trying to fill a void of something that was never there to begin with.
I can’t say for sure who you were
But I remember who I thought you were
Trying to convince myself there was nothing I could’ve done for you
Even if there was
Blaming myself for all of this
Besides being another face
I was nothing to you
Now I’m trying to find you so we can sit again
Face to face
So you can tell me
Just who I was
Then I can forget you
Just like I should have months ago
But there’s always the possibility
Of the spark being re lit
But I’m just hoping
You’ll tell me
I was just another face
Then I will have time to heal.
But darling
I still look forward to seeing your face
Despite what could go wrong.
Willing to risk this all
Just for you