Departing past

To all my friends , I love you ... Thank you for teaching the most valuable Lesson

And the talent is locked from within
But I'm not looking from within
No no no

And the talent is from within
But I'm not looking from within
No no no I don't know I can't an shouldn't

I'm seeing my past in the presence of the present timing of my life being uplifted

But I don't I don't I don't
I just don't know
I don't know if I can if I can if I can

Dr dr I need a new pill
A new thrill
Walk into oncoming traffic
Heart beating I'm beating to a new drum
Addicted to the thrill of death
It's my higher purpose my only purpose

But I don't I don't I don't
I just don't know

SHOULD I ?

But I don't I don't
I just don't know don't know
I don't know

SHOULD I ?

Why I'm this way
Or if my higher purpose is my purpose
Because I feel like death is my purpose
It's on purpose why I act this way
Cause if I don't you won't

ANYONE THERE ?

I'm going to Im going to Im going to

TYLER !!!!! STOPPPPPPP !!

Hop in the car
No belt
Just a thought
Single belief
Has me swerving into traffic
I'm the bull I'm the bull I'm the f*****g bull

Red flags bloodied rags
It's not a story of hope but I'm hoping
Hoping you'll descend from up above defend my last thought last belief because no one else has or will

ALL ALONE IM ALL ALONE

It's me myself and I
And I want a friend but they want ....
YOUR CALL HAS BEEN DISCONNECTED

and this is to all my quote on quote friends
To all my friends who said they loved me
To the friends who said they had me

Cause when I was suicidal
When I was looking to my grave
When I needed a helping hand

THE PERSON YOU ARE TRYING TO REACH IS UNAVAILABLE

no reply no text no return call
I'm all good it's all good
Friends ?
F**k off eat my dick swallow my load
You don't oh you don't know you don't
You don't deserve my love
You're dead to me
You're dead to me
You're f*****g dead to me

Now now I hear it now
I forgive forgave I forgive you I swear I do
But you're an x in my black book
I'll have your heart shook


Cause when I was in need
Cause when I needed you
Cause when I felt hopeless
Helpless
You weren't there where were you


THE PERSON YOU ARE TRYING TO REACH IS UNAVAILABLE

no call back no text no nothing
So you're dead to me
It my lead it's the bullet of my loaded thoughts
This is my thinking caused by my drinking
I'll have you thinking
I'll have you oh I'll have you I'll have you
Thinking I'm still drinking
But I'm just reflecting inside the deep end of the pool you left me drown in
So as I drown my sorrows you can drown on the thought of what you did cause you did what you did
I did what I did but I said I said my sorry
Sorry dear it's your turn
Have you the ball

HELLO ?

AND THE STORY CONTINUES


I can't feel life
I can't no
I can't feel life
No
I can't feel life I don't feel it
I can't feel it no
I can't feel it no
I don't know I don't know I just don't know
I know if if reality is duality
Then I'm
Cursed and blessed
A gift
Wrapped and sent to sender


I can't feel life no I can't no I can't no I can't


HELP !!!
IM DROWNING








hey man , I missed your call last week. Everything all good ?



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