Just

Sunday drives,

Not so sunny skies.

Not at all close to perfect

And at this moment,

I really hate my life!

Though I acknowledge that I am blessed,

Passed tensed,

To be alive.

I am full of envy,

Hate,

And despise!

I’m captured in the true lies

And I can’t escape them no matter how

Hard I try…

Perfecting deception without a care…

I ask, “Is this the work of the devil,

or just me?”

Everyday I pray to the lord,

Not asking why, but asking for

Forgiveness.

Everyday there’s more pain and agony...

My heart is so cold;

Therefore,

My heart is speechless.

I don’t know what to do or say..,

So a lonely soul  I’ll remain…

I smoke and drink away these past days to erase last year’s taste…

Yet it all still remains…

The flames claim the future, past, and present:

Yes, 

All of me!

Why have I allowed myself to become this hopeless creature ?

No love.

No dreams.

All I have are these tears to comfort me..,

So don’t ask why don’t I care

Because I can no longer feel, 

So I steal your happiness

When I ask, 

“How are you?”

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

A very sad journey in the words. We will be many people in along life. Sometime happy and sometime filled with Anger. I like the internal thoughts in the poetry. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you so much for reading!

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome.

[Ishita Dixit]

The last three lines got me bad, David!
It's so true. Our sufferings from the past can sometimes leave us so shattered that we absolutely fail to see the good in present times.
Well penned!

[sinNsincerity]

Very much so! And the only way I find happiness now is in others no matter how much people annoy me haha One day at a time I'm learning how to open up and accept people for who they are, so that I can get out of myself.
I'm really glad those last lines stood out to you because they do to me.
Thank you so much for reading Ishita!

[Ishita Dixit]

You're welcome!

[Crystal Overmeyer-Birmi..]

I really dig this. its very truthful and a taste of honesty that is hard to digest with out turning it inward to your own soul. Thoughtful and provoking.

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you Crystal, I'm really glad to hear that.

[Ana B.]

oh well, i can say i've missed reading your stuff SiS, a remarkable jem ths one is. :)

[sinNsincerity]

I highly appreciate it Ana! =D
Thank you so much.

[Cara]

this does hurt, a great poem thank you for sharing

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you for reading Cara!

[Rudi J.P. Lejaeghere]

Sad poem, Sin in Sincerity, but right from the heart. Thank you for sharing this poem. :) Rudi

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you Rudi!

[Rana]

So melancholic yet so pleasurable to read, perhaps because a piece of oneself is found somewhere in your words, the way it has been written. Now the three questions in there are all remarkable, specially and the last one indeed makes a great climax. Neat! (plus, the big blue nose in the picture and those eyes, how perfectly reflect it all).

[sinNsincerity]

hehe, thank you Rana!

[Emily]

Vary nice poem!
Keep it up!!

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you Emily!

[Confuser]

Sin in Sincerity: I like it very much..very sad and sometimes that life. It captured the feelings of hopelessness all of us feel at some time or another. I love the way you just lay it out there; no reservations; and that makes great poetry. It forced me to remember. Well penned and Thank you. Dale

[sinNsincerity]

When the stakes are high, I have no other choice but to lay it all out there...
Thank you for reading and leaving your insight. I'm really glad you got anything out of it Dale. =D

[Confuser]

Liked it better 2nd read....:D

[jeannemarie coulter]

Perfecting deception without a care…

the above sounds like a politician in training...lol...

your words are well chosen and the image of loss and loneliness permeate the whole poem...i hope you learn, as my beloved husband taught me, to see the funny side of things...it truly helps to hold so much sorrow and insanity at bay...our laughter is the healing hunting hounds cry

[sinNsincerity]

hehe, I didn't mean it at that way. More of me never showing you my true self because you won't understand. Not you, people in general.
I have learned to do so years ago. Trust, my thinking and wisdom is beyond my years and that comes with experiences. But everyday or moment isn't popcorn and balloons and even though I don't feel like this all the time, some people out there do and it's important that they can read this and know they aren't alone. Laughter curs all and is very healthy. My sarcasm stretches far and and it's just really hard to find an other's that can match mine without being offended.
Thank you so much for reading and sharing your thoughts with me. It's always a pleasure!