Try Harder

These are merely the things I feel

I can't make these feeling become real

For I know, no one will ever believe me

And I try, to become the one

Who's doesn't open up

To the outside world

When it gets too much to take

When my sanity is at stake

When my heart's about to break

That's when I cry...

 

These are merely the thoughts I think

And they disappear away in a blink

I am left confused, not knowing what to do

I'm not a better judge than you

I know I make mistakes

The painful guilt within me reminds me all the time

Is forgiveness too much to ask for?

Isn't love too much to strive for?

Isn't it peace what we all are looking for?

When my conscience crumbles

When, on paths, I stumble

When I can't take take it anymore

That's when I speak...

 

These are merely my actions

It's hard to believe

That I do go wrong so many times

Although, I try to be on the right side

Things tend to take unexpected turns

On the pathway of life

No matter how fast I run behind them

I can never catch them

And set them right

The people I love, tell me

About my wrongdoings over and over again

I try not to talk back

But they persist

And I shout, I scream

For them to leave me alone

It's in this state of mind

I don't know what I'm doing

And commit yet, another mistake

When my crying ceases

When speech doesn't help

When I feel facing the whole world on my own

That's when I tell myself to try harder

 

For that ray of hope

That shines through the darkest clouds

For the gift of life

That sprouts and crushes the stones

For the beauty of nature

That fills my heart with peace

For myself,

Because maybe I deserve it

A second chance...

 

I tell myself to try harder...

Author's Note

I skipped rhymes here...
Hope you liked it!!

Reviews

[alternative_be]

Like Kantola mentions, good poetry is not about the rhymes but about connecting with your readers and this poem certainly does just that. I am sure many people will recognize themselves when reading this gem. This is as close to human nature as one can get!
Trust me, we all make mistakes, otherwise, we would not be ... human!

[.:<Bridget>:.]

the entire thing was just...amazing. just everything to it was absolutely wonderful

"For that ray of hope
That shines through the darkest clouds
For the gift of life
That sprouts and crushes the stones
For the beauty of nature
That fills my heart with peace
For myself,
Because maybe I deserve it
A second chance..."

that was my favorite part. it has a lot of meaning and its one hundred percent true. keep up the good work i love it :)

[*Kantola*]

It doesn't matter whether you did or didn't skip rhymes because this was AWESOME! (Woot, im back in the habit lol)
This was amazing... I am also constantly telling myself every day to "try harder." This is actually hard to do for any person, and it doesn't always depend on the circumstances. Trying harder takes a lot of effort.

"And I try, to become the one
Who's doesn't open up
To the outside world
When it gets too much to take
When my sanity is at stake
When my heart's about to break
That's when I cry..."

That quote just captured me... I know what it's like all too well :(
Hope you're doing well, Siya!