Fatigue

as a kid I felt I could never catch up

with my friends

with my homework

physically

or catch my breath

everything felt like I was running up hill all the time

like my body was 3 times as heavy as everyone else

like trying to run swiftly underwater while wearing winter clothes

feeling slightly out of phase with

the universe

I did my best.

in the arts I was ferociously creative

making up for the fatigue

somehow feeling rested, restored, regenerated

on the page " a painting, a story

 

as an adult I could never seem to catch up

with my friends

with my work

financially

or catch my breath

sometimes everything felt like running up a hill

like my body was twice as heavy as everyone else

like trying to run swiftly underwater while wearing summer clothes

feeling slightly out of phase with

the universe

I did my best.

in the arts I was ferociously creative

making up for the fatigue

somehow feeling rested, restored, regenerated, reinvented

on the page - a painting, a story, a sculpture, a film

as an old woman they can never seem to catch up with me

my friends

my students

community

they lose their breath

sometimes everything feels like running down a hill

like my body could fly

or like a mermaid moving swiftly in the sea

feeling one with

universe

I am my best

in the arts I am ferociously creative

seeing well into the future; well before my time

somehow feeling rested, restored, regenerated, reinvented, reincarnated

on the page " a painting, a story, a sculpture, a film, a knitted scarf, a garden, a loaf of bread…