Meu Pai (My Father)

I had to write this, in order to sleep last nite.

I Love you Dad, I don't hate you

I Love you Dad, I always do

I just hated the way you hurt my mum

And how you hurt my siblings too

 

I realise now as age takes you

You didn't know how to be a Dad

You weren't shown that love as a lad

Your mother has a lot to blame

 

I remember the hurtful things you'd say

A pain I've locked so far away

Your terrible rages and your spite

And all those tears when you'd fight

 

But I also remember better times

When I was so ill and you were so kind

The child in me, remembers to this day

The fort of toast, hot chocolat on a tray

 

I'm sad for you, your time is hard

Time to remember, all you've done

Pushing back those memories

Won't assuage your guilt or clear my dreams

 

I Love You Dad, I Always Will

I Forgive You Now, but you never will...

Author's Note

a very personal and hard thing to display.

Reviews

[Tomás Ó C..]

Indeed, such cannot be forgiven, but it dont mean we dont love them any the less...

[C.T. Bailey]

So special. You are a special person. It is a good thing to lay down those burdens. This is a piece filled with many different emotions, and you are the master of them all. The death of my father prompted many writings...I understand your hurt.

Todd

[Michael X]

Absolutely heartfelt melanie, everything about this poem, and it has a way of reliving itself, and i agree with dale, for you to share something so hard yet in such a way that you gain understanding is what builds bridges, beautifully done.

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

Wow I can see why this was hard for you to display and i admire you for it... you show great compassion for being able to forgive and try and understand his side... thanks for sharing something so deep and personal.

[Albert Freeman]

Beautiful poem, Stormz. I know it takes a lot to open up to the world on what happened. It's good to get painful memories out into the light and remember the good things. xxxx

[Angel's Lady]

An honorable job of a painful tribute to write. Wonderfully done, with obvious love in every keystroke. Great write.