How can I tell you things I don’t want to say?,

Things you don’t want to hear,

How am I meant to tell you?,

When I don’t know myself,

When you say that you love me I know it’s a lie

I never fooled myself into thinking it was real

But I did believe when you told me what you feel,

It makes me laugh cos no one really knows

 What you’ve said to me behind her back

There is just some information they lack

But I feel so stupid

 When they all say give it up there’s no hope

And all I can think is

That’s no exactly what I’ve just read

You say things like believe me you’re hot and I miss you,

You’re amazing

So I think ok at least some feelings are there

Even if unpersued

Then you blow me away

By saying words I have waited to hear

We could keep it our little secret

You’ve blown my mind

I say yes

You knew I would

But straight away I doubt

That your lustful feelings will indeed be seen through

You assure me it will happen

We arrange for it to happen

I start to get the shakes you say

We’ll take it slow

This would have been my first time

I start to believe that I will finally get what I want

And then you say no Kayleigh

I can’t do this

I say its fine I’m not made I don’t hate you

But only because I can’t

My friends say I should give you up

Not to talk to you it was for my own good

I had to do it end it all

When I tried to think of the words

I didn’t want to say them

Something about seeing you made me so happy

And I get confused

Should I hate you?

 Yes I really should

You have put me through shit

Egging me on

Then making e feel stupid

But then I think

Well

Maybe  saying no makes you a good guy

After all

Not wanting to hurt anyone

This is want clouds my mind

Stops me from moving on

Wondering if I should wait for you

Even though I know it won’t last if it did

But just one night would be enough