The Headphones

Autobiographical.

Cherry-flavored antacids
cool her stomach
but they don't kill the beast.

"Here's some Xanax," they said.
She sits on her bed,
waiting for the pain to calm
and when it doesn't,
she goes back to the doctors.

Soon she is full of opiates,
washing them down with vodka,
but still,
the demon persists.

Finally she drowns her sorrow
in anything she can get her sweaty little hands on:
anti-depressants,
benzos,
narcotics,
sleeping pills,
alcohol,
mary jane.

And when she has exhausted all her options,
she lies on her bed,
headphones on her ears,
and realizes
this is what she needed
all along.

Reviews

[Ghost writer]

Yes, Music is medicine I really felt the pain here, the need to get better, good writing

[Fiction]

this is really good. I can relate to this in so many ways. if i didnt have music id probably have gone insane by now lol

[Emily Irene.]

Thanks! I know, its a tried-and-true savior.

[Emily]

'This is what she needed all along' love this part!! Good job.

[Emily Irene.]

Thank you so much!

[IfThisIsLove_IDontWantT..]

c: I found this reminds me of how I feel, some time of the month xD

[Emily Irene.]

Haha thank you.

[IfThisIsLove_IDontWantToBeLoved]

No problem ^.^

[Sephnier]

This is great, I can really relate. Thanks!

[Emily Irene.]

I'm glad you could relate! Thank YOU.

[zaneybear]

i love this, because a lot of people don't realize how impacting music can be on some people, it just brings out the best in a lot of things and helps a lot of people. thank you for this.

[Emily Irene.]

No, thank YOU. I like to say that music is my Jesus, God and religion all rolled into one. Its helped me dictate my morals and values over the years and its saved me more than any "real" religion ever could. Its my savior.

[zaneybear]

that is exactly my thought process, thank you

[Emily Irene.]

you're welcome. :] glad to find another person who puts their faith in music.

[zaneybear]

a lot of people do, they just don't admit it haha

[Emily Irene.]

Yeah haha or they can't vocalize those feelings.

[Deron Alexis]

I agree my mind also quiets when there's music in the background loved the flow in this poem and the comparisons really made me keep on reading thing of beauty well done!
XD

[Emily Irene.]

Thank you so much! Its all autobiographical.

[Blue Belle]

Inspirational! I love how music can do that for someone. I love music myself. It's amazing. I love the poem. It made me feel sad, but at the end, you brought it on strong to enlighten the reader.

[Emily Irene.]

Thank you. Music means everything to me. It used to be stronger - the time this is being written about in particular, I clung to music like the savior it was - but I still consider it my only real religion. It has helped form my beliefs and values over the last 15 or so years and it never fails me, even when everyone else does.