hands at ears hair splayed screaming

hands at ears hair splayed screaming

A Chapter by TLK

hands at ears hair splayed screaming

 

hands at ears hair splayed screaming
the baby copying her tears snot streaming
is how I remember her always have always will
gripped with need for some small pill
or syringe or---

I'm holding her mother's hand, and -- lying --
Say that I loved her more as she was dying.
Ignoring the cause, ignoring my guilt
Boarding up the windows with the view I built.
We're crazy paving, joined together.
Hands all linked in forgetting whether
We were the cause of the start, the end,
Or the middle, where she showed that she would tend--
Maybe our actions sped her up, catalysed?
We do not ask.
                Our mouths all lie that we are surprised.

---she is pregnant hands encircling
rich and fertile with a hidden promise
boy or girl?
We know now so
we celebrate
even though we had made a promise not to
was that the start?

The hardest question comes last,
At last,
"Will the baby remember her past?
Yes, I say, from far away,
We'll say a prayer on Mother's day.
There will be a picture (blown-up huge), I'll ask who's that?
She'll look up brightly from her activity mat--

I float away, mouth using persuasive platitudes,
Telling them she will know her mother's multitudes,
Wondering whether my memories can be falsified.
Wondering whether I will remember that I lied.

--I'm holding her mother's hand, and - lying -
Say that I love her most now she is dead.
I have fooled her, she looks down, sighing,
But her father's red-rimmed eyes hold steady on my head.




© 2013 TLK



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Completely blown away by this. The story is so real, the use of flow, language, alliteration , rhyme and repetition build it up into this enormously accomplished poem. None of these elements stick out awkwardly,they just sit so well. Easily publish-able I'd say.

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TLK

5 Years Ago

I don't know where this came from -- I tend to avoid rhyme (and, nowadays, I tend to write prose poe.. read more



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Great flow and nice rhyme scheme.

Posted 4 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

TLK

4 Years Ago

Yes, I rhyme very rarely, so I am happy that this one reads OK.
Completely blown away by this. The story is so real, the use of flow, language, alliteration , rhyme and repetition build it up into this enormously accomplished poem. None of these elements stick out awkwardly,they just sit so well. Easily publish-able I'd say.

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2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

TLK

5 Years Ago

I don't know where this came from -- I tend to avoid rhyme (and, nowadays, I tend to write prose poe.. read more
I love the use of alliteration to create a quick rhythm for the piece. Very interesting

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1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

TLK

5 Years Ago

I think the rhythm is supposed to mirror the speaker's wish: he wants this horrible ticking-clock pa.. read more
Intense. A good poem. Nice work.

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TLK

5 Years Ago

Thank you for noticing the intensity. It's why I wrote i t.
I loved this piece. It had that burning intensity that I enjoyed. I am speechless. I loved the power and I loved the flow. It was a great piece. Thank you for sharing.

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1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

TLK

5 Years Ago

I think this is the most intense thing I wrote. I really felt the scene when I wrote this. I almost .. read more
TLK

5 Years Ago

"I think this is the most intense thing I've written so far," I mean.
Angie Diane♥♥

5 Years Ago

That's always a good thing in poetry. :3
I loved it!
Oh, boy!
Can I see this performed, please?

The intensity and flow of this is something fiery and real.
And, the style it's written in is grand.

Love it!

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1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Elephants & Coyotes

5 Years Ago

Understandable - this coming from an actress, however.
MAKE IT HAPPEN.

I was real.. read more
TLK

5 Years Ago

Another problem: I don't have any beatnik attire.
Elephants & Coyotes

5 Years Ago

Haha then I'll let it slide, this time.
I am in awe.

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TLK

5 Years Ago

I'd be happier if I was able to use different kinds of dash (http://csswizardry.com/2010/01/the-thre.. read more

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