On my own

 

Sadness

Hopelessness

Defeat

 

My life

My emotions

 

Anger blinds me

Sadness engulfs me

Depression surrounds me

 

Trapped in this world of mine

No escape

No hope

No life

 

This feeling

This weight

All to heavy for my shoulders

 

Wrists aching

Dizzy head

Heavy heart

 

No help from you

No kindness from you

Nothing at all

 

Can I blame you?

You don’t know, do you?

 

To you I am happy

To you I am normal

To you I show my mask

 

No one

Know the true me

Knows how I feel

Knows how I really am

No one

 

I am alone

Handling this alone

In my depression

On my own

Author's Note

This is a poem I wrote so please comment! I write what I feel and I know this is sad but I would love all types of comments!!

Reviews

[Rose of Gondor]

Being on your own is the worst thing that can happen to anyone. Just remember, life will always get better, and once the storm is over, when the clouds depart and the last of the rain fall, you'll find the sun again, and then the sky will be bluer than you remember, and the sun will shine brighter. There is always hope, because in every dark tunnel there is light at the very end. So you just gotta hold on and brave the world until you get to that light.

A really good poem so full of raw emotion. Hope things get better soon.

[trainwreck]

This was a really good piece. This went up in 2011, I'm hoping things have changed for you. As far as the poem itself, I really enjoyed reading it. Keep writing!

[tanaya]

Nope nothing has changed...

[trainwreck]

I'm so sorry to hear that. Depression is a dark hole. It never feels like there is a way out, but nothing, not even the horrors of depression, lasts forever. Nothing on this earth is made for forever, except our souls.

[MoriartyMesa]

The work takes the reader by his or her neck shakes them about and than say's
"DO YOU UNDERSTAND NOW" and I like that, nice sobering wake up for the reader.

[ATG]

Feeling alone is one of the worse feelings in the world. I have experienced it first hand so I do know how it feels. This poem captures that feeling perfectly. It was a great poem overall.

[Inyourshadow]

Before I was diagnosed as a paranoid anti social depression sufferer I too hid my true feelings from all behind a mask of smiles and forced laughter, now with meds and understanding I move forward one day at a time and it is not always easy I have set backs and days when I too feel engulfed. But we must keep trying because the people we were are out there somewhere waiting for us to find them because no one else can. Keep your chin up and keep em' coming

[Larry Dyson]

my depression is like a mouse trap...I know its there and even when its not baited...I just cannot seem to avoid it.

[Lily Mae]

Sadness and sorrow that dive into the core of our souls is always sad and yet it so cathartic to write about it.. I think you've described it perfectly... depression is hard to explain for those who suffer and hard for those who don't to understand..xx

[Walk away slow poet]

I am one myself that usually hides how I feel all to avoid a fight. I really enjoyed this write though. Awesome write!

[Leon R]

As a person who prefers darker works I like it. Strong feelings described with strong words. Awesome!

[Coyote Poetry]

Most people hide their emotion. Good to write them down and try to lose the bad stuff and live for the new day. No-one had a easy life. Good to think and re-set dreams and goals. Thank you for a excellent poem.
Coyote