The blade

 

So shiny

Yet so dangerous

This thing

Could end all

 

All my suffering

All my pain

End everything

 

Would there be pain?

Or pleasure?

Would I regret it?

Or rejoice in it?

 

Would I succeed?

Or would I fail?

My goal

Never achieved

Always waiting for the right moment

But it never coming

 

 

I have failed

I could not succeed in even this

I am weak

Not even able to do this tiny thing

This tiny thing that could fix all

Could take away it all

 

Take away all this pain,

This pain in my heart

It is always there

Waiting for the moment to pounce

Grab me in it's clutches

And tear me apart

From inside out

It is Unbearable

I need to end it

Now

 

I will find a way

To end it all

I just need a patience

That I don’t have

 

 

Please help me

This pain

Take it from me

I can not handle it

I am not strong enough

So please

Just take a little

That little bit will be a lot

It will ease my pain

Just for a moment

So please take it!

 

That shiny thing

Its not working

It wont do its job

It wont take it away

It wont do what I need it to do

 

The blade

It wont go

It wont take it all away

I have failed

I have failed myself

 

Please take this blade

Please do its job

Reviews

[InkSlinger]

Oh but the joy you would miss.. One can not know what pain is, until they have tasted joy. When the night seems to be the darkest, there is always a flicker of light, giving hope. Look for the light for there is goodness in everything!

[Aeternal Oceanfire]

Meow and hello! This poem was great. Sorry I couldn't write more, but I sometimes have difficulty putting my thoughts about poems down. Still, I enjoyed it.

[Kenneth S.]

Sad indeed. I recommend Fluox and counseling.

[Erinne S.]

Yeah this is defintiely a sad poem. Full of drama and pain. The flow was really good!

[realmwriter]

the only thing i can say is. I Love You...! Even if you think no one else does...I do, I don't know who you are other than your name but I love you...Not the way a man loves his wife but he way a friend, even if only by word, loves another human being. But most importantly GOD loves you...!

[M.Kilani]

Painful and real, this is but drama, and drama is but a reflection of life, to be honest I'm not a big fan of suicide, well not after watching a friend attempting one, poetry wise I like this piece, I like the paradox of its start, I enjoy sadness, depression and madness, you had them all in your piece, but again suicide is never an answer... but since I like your piece I'll tell you a secret, I as well tried that once I even made a poem out of it http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/Kilani/621212/ I hope this might help you get through !

[Seshat Nidaba]

Gosh, you had me on pins and needles Tan, no more razors today, k? Phew, my skin crawled so I guess your poetic endeavor was a great success. I'm a bit of a wuss, just saying...

[Trish D.]

I guess we have all felt like that sometimes. Maybe it is better to look for solutions rather than escapes. Thanks for your poem. You have talent.

[KT]

Very real, very heart-wrenching poem. Great writing, good wording. Outstanding job!

[VelvetRosetta]

It is my friend very sad and something I contemplated in the past and have to say I am sooo glad I never gone through with it or I wouldnt be here today.
Some days are better than others.
But reality is, no one is obligated to make our lives happy, it is up to us, we have to take hold of the reigns. It is our life and as sure others dont have to live it for us only means we have to live it to the fullest, no matter your current situation, know that tomorrow is another chance at happiness and achievment! If you ever need to speak then know that I am willing to do so.