I cant hate you

 

Cowering in a corner

No more

I will be strong

 

Whimpering and crying

No more

You cant hurt me

 

I will not fail

I will not cry

I will not let you hurt me

 

No more

Not ever again

I cant let you get to me

 

Shield my heart

Put up stone cold walls

No one gets in

 

You have made me this way

Are you proud?

I will be untouchable

 

Never am I able to trust

Not able to love

I am no longer capeable of loving and trusting

 

Everyone is an enemy

Everyone hates me

You have made me like this

 

You have made me flinch

You have made me cry

You have made me bleed

 

My heart cant take it

It will fall apart

So fragile, is my heart

 

Yet you have made me so

Yet you have hurt me so

Yet I cant hate you

 

I want to

I try to

But I cant

 

I want to be angry at you

I want to yell and scream at you

I want to hurt you

 

But I cant

I cant hurt the one person who caused me so much pain

I cant hate my father

 

So I am broken

So my heart stays open and bleeding

With no one to stitch it up

 

My heart is bleeding

And It will forever bleed

Because you wont change

 

Chance after chance

You have taken them and thrown them away

Like scraps of dirt, our hearts

 

You say you love us

But you hurt us

But its ok

 

I will always forgive you

I will always love you

No matter how much I don’t want to

Author's Note

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Reviews

[CHRIS ANDES]

this is what you call determination
=]

[KillerWithWords]

Strong words you use here.
As for the content. You've splayed your sorrowful insides masterfully inside this poem. It was a great read.
As for the poetry part. Try to find your rhythm. You definitely have it at certain instances, just try to keep to it.

[ATG]

A damn good poem. It started off sounding like a breakup that went badly, but took a twist when you refered to your father and made me re-read the stanzas that came before it. Note this is not a bad thing. This, in my opinion, is a flawless poem.

[tanaya]

Wow thanks :D Flawless? Really?

[ATG]

Yes. In my opinion it is flawless. Granted, I'm not the best poet in the world so bare that in mind.

[tanaya]

Hahhaha still thank you so much :)

[SmileBig :)]

I absolutely love this :) great job! Good meaning and its so true!

[Jane Doe]

Second chances won't leave us alone, cause there's faith in love"- kissing in cars by pierce the veil

I was just listening to the song and the phrase fit perfectly. I understand to a degree how you feel I've felt this way and still do when my mother betrays me but no matter how much I cry and cut I still love her. As much as I dont want to I do, it's unfortunate but it's true.

I just wish there was some way they would change, but they choose not too. All you can do is love them :/

Great poem
Xoxo
~Abbie
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[manish]

when a person who means the world becomes the reason demolishing his/her place in our lives it results in unbearable pain out of irrepairable damage.i could sense it in your work.

[tanaya]

True... Im glad I got that through :)

[TheKaylaPup]

The best and worst part of this poem is, you can tell you wrote it from your heart. I could never even imagine what the situation described in the poem would actually be like, but your pain gives your words the ability to show people how you feel; even people who have no way of knowing. It isn't something that anyone can pull off, but you do so masterfully. Hang in there, and if you ever need anyone to talk to, remember that your friends here in writes cafe are there for you. Great write.

[Emrick]

yes dont hate him he is your father.without him you wouldnt be existing.Stuff happen and its our responsibility to act calm.

[lovejulez03]

I feel for you through this poem. I have felt the same way about my father, but maybe for different reasons. It's a beautiful poem because the feelings are real and honest. Thank you for sharing and I enjoyed reading it! :)Hugs

[Perfect Mistake]

A very powerful poem, lots of raw emotion. Great work :3